kash2000

"Please don't ever think "I wish they didn't exist." I've done it before and I so wish I didn't." I understand what you are saying, but the thing is that she stands for all that is wrong with this world. She stands and glares upon altruism and deliberately steps on it. It is not about if she hurt me or not, she did it...took me a year to get over it & thanks to it I did gain so much knowledge about myself. So my thanks to her! But now that I have found myself...I can see clearly what was wrong without any bias or agenda. She stops my friends to ask them to check out her myspace account and her new music (in pursuit of a career in music has always been important to her). But the very same people...she ignores the next day according to who she is with at the time. ](*,) Could this be right? Is this a healthy human being? Don't you wish there were fewer of these people in this world? We could begin with her!?

permission for Advil? I really think there's so much to do in life that Love & Women fill only so many holes and those holes are right in our route of experiences and interests. Why can't we just tear this urge for love and partnership due to our insecurity and be bold enough to jump into life!?!! five espresso's and a red bull does the job but there must be a healthier way!?

nevermind Reading FCTex's post gave me what I was looking for. Thanks FC, great post.

What if you spent a good while with a woman (2 years). Imagin if you spent it breaking to her ego. Forfilling hers and abandoning your own pursuits. What if she destroyed your sense of individuality and character and introduced you to profound amounts of stress & anxiety that no one had ever induced upon you. The central element of her world is herself. Overcoming her childhood hardships has convinced her of a certain superiority to her surroundings, treating most people as close-minded upon initial contact. Obstructively interrupting people's conversations and enforcing her opinion in classes and creating an aura of superiority around her. I never knew anything about the concept of spirit. Until I had to research what it is that is turning my stomach. Where does this put you? Even after the breakup? Confronting her in school creates so much pain...to know such a person can & does exist and such a perception of life is possible. What if I don't hate her as a gf, but hate her as a human being...every one of her core values. What if her essense makes my stomach turn and rib cage shiver with fear? Should I pick up a gun (ofcourse I am not talking literally...well maybe one bullet? it's just one!?) My solution so far has been to delete her from memory. When I stumble upon her in school, I literally see nothing. My eye wavers off without care...but my heart thrives with a pain that forbids breathing (oh no it's not love). She sometimes approaches me to talk, and I just want to die, I say nothing and look down & just murmur the lyrics of a song. I want to burst into tears of terror because I see the devil. (and I'm a nihilist) I've never ever hated anyone. I believe we are not to judge until we have researched analyzed and re-evaluated someone over a consistent amount of communication over a substantial amount of time. Otherwise...I assume you are a human capable of lots of mistakes, but mean well. My question for you guys is how would you deal with this? Because I think I'll unfortunately have to master the art of hate...alone. What do I do? How do I handle this? Can't I just delete her? I can delete spam! surely there must be a way for this... Thanks so much for reading all that. Propz to you. a