My ex & i were in an on & off relationship for 5 yrs, i called a halt on things when i found out there was someone else in the picture 1 yr ago.. yes i am in love with him still, he is also the father of my youngest child who is 4yrs now.. We have been corresponding for a while on & off, with no intimacy (my choice) for 1 yr, which he isnt to happy about, but thats how it is.. abouth 3 months ago he stated that he didnt want me to see other people, he knows that i love him & he does play games, but i try to ignore the games.
I'm just trying to keep things as real as possible, but its getting really hard. I asked him to make a decision as to what he wants, & to stop playing games, he says he needs time to think, its been a week now & i am doing really well, as we used to tex each other practically everyday, sometimes corresponding all day even while he was at work as a telephone adviser..But the biggest problem is, is that he wont confront issues with me regarding our son, or me, he refuses to come & sit & talk with me about anything, but if i said he could come around for sex he is there in a flash.. I havnt allowed him any intimacy with me for 1 year now, & all i got up to last week were texts begging me to let him come around..then i asked him to be straight up with me & tell me what he really wants from me, I havnt heard from him, he just told me he needs time to think..](*,)
He is very intimidating to other blokes he sees me talking to, & becomes quite abrupt & scarcastic when we do see each other. But he never comes around our child or has ever asked to take him out.. He says he didnt want anymore children & that i brought this on myself, he only wanted a relationship with me.
I was seeing someone for 4 months but he made this guys life hell, he was very intimidating, & he actually made the guy think that there was still something going on between us even though i stopped all contact with him throughout the whole 4 month relationship.the guy didnt believe, even though we were together 6 out of 7 days & nites of the week. Yes it ended, i couldnt take the arguments, the guy had no trust in me, & i just realised that he was too insecure.
Dont get me wrong my sons dad has bought our son things & provided for his upkeep, but has stopped from last week, but if we have an argument around our sons birthday or xmas, our son doesnt receive nothing.
I know that he isnt emotionally available, & i am trying to move forwards. But its like he doesnt want me to.. Ive tried to cut all ties, but he makes my life miserable.
Why is it all about me???? why is he spiteing me????
I have had enough of this now..