Over the summer, I broke up with my boyfriend of four years. I was ready for a committment and he wasn't willing to make the move. With him being 13 years older than me, I figured that he should be able to make up his mind. But, instead, he never did. It was always, "I love you, but I have things that I need to work through first."
Anyway, I have had a very hard time moving on....and I wish it wasn't like that. I wish that I could just wake up and be over him! Just like that!! But, it hasn't been that easy at all. I have had a very hard time NOT talking to him via phone or email. And, we have had "visiting" times..if you know what I mean.
But, I decided that this has to stop because it is hurting me more than helping me. I am continuing the heartache instead of moving on. So, the only way, that I could think that would MAKE me stop talking to him is to just tell him that I was interested in someone else and that I thought we should stop talking. I hated lying to him because it is just WRONG! But, I had to do something to help ME out! Otherwise, it would be another four years of the same. I feel really guilty though about this.
I do want to start meeting other people. And, I know there will be no chance for any of them as long as we are still talking...and that is another reason that I told him that. I have to move on!!!!!
I wish someone could tell me that I did the right thing....and that everything will work out..one way or the other...I am just starting to panic..wondering if I really screwed up!! Help me, my friends!!