honey_bee

how do we as people forgive. In this journey called life, we go through alot of emotions! I started therapy today and my group leader, said we can't move on in our lives with all our emotional baggage, that we take with us on this journey. I wondered what he ment by that so I asked how do I move on. He said have you ever forgave yourself for all that has happen to you. I said no I never looked at it that way, and that I always blamed others>>> not a good thing I know now so friends Honey_Bee, had to forgive herself today. And I must say it felt real good and I cried, and cried. My group leader said your crying because you have forgiven yourself.. I'm writting you guys because I know how hard this life can be, and maybee my mistakes show's you guy's that life will go on and get better.. WE MAY HAVE TO FORGIVE OURSELF AS WELL AS WE FORGAVE THEM..... best wishes friend on your own journey and someday maybee I'll see you on the other side.. sincerly honey_bee

hello, friends, I just came back from my visit to the doctor, and i was druged but not by a date rape drug. But by someone who lace there cigarettes, blunts, or just take vicodian. I don't smoke drugs and from what they are telling me is that something happened to me and I'm getting really sick, right now I bearly can sit, that day i cooked my own food that i brought from a grocery store, all they know is I was posion,, this hurts but life hurts to. I got to go take more test because my body is fighting it but it want stop fighting my body.. thanks for you all support, but now it's so much bigger than i thought,, I just knew that night wasn't me...... most sincere. honye_bee,

thanks you guys i will follow the advice and get back to you guys and let you no how it's going my body feels like what are you doing to me.. thanks

i hope she didn't but i know it was left with her . i asked her if she could remember when i gave it to her she said that when i went in she was talking to her boyfriend, and she remember me taking my glass from one guy and breaking it because he had my glass she can't even remember anything either.. I don't want to blame her anymore because i just should of stayed in the house and none of this would of happened. like i said it's more to this my niece is young and has been on all kind of drug's but i never thought by me sitting out side would effect me she is my family and i love her but if she no they do drug's .. never mind , maybee somone would understand where i'm coming from ,, the ghetto

I don't know if it was adate rape drug. i don't do drugs there is alot more to this storie i just was trying to understand the different types of drug's that can make you loose memory.. it could of been my cigarettes.. thanks for the support anyway and i act knowledge my actions and i hate it happen but i know me, there would have to be a problem with this person for me to just act this way...

yes I had gotten drunk before and we fault because i caught him with someone. i remember that very good i have drinked alot,, neveronce did i black out and come back to. the reason my child felt this way was because i only had two strawberry ice drinks then she saw me with a beer i got from someone, i'm not taking up for actions but i know that from what he is saying to me is,, i was not in the right state of mind ,,i know i had only been outside for 1 1/2 hr and i've been drinking these strawberry drinks for ever ,,but to loose time where i can't even remember what happen just dosen't sit well with me.. i'm not making an excuse i'm just trying to understand how this happen, what if while i blanked out someone got killed.. and i didn't even remember... from 8pm to 9:45pm two drinks i recall. this just can't happen unless there is something wrong with my brain, that's all i'm saying.....thank you for your advice

I posted friday morning, saying i hurt my boyfriend, and that we were fighting. my child came to me and said mom at school they talked to us about people having drug's put in there drinks. she said you wasn't talking right so i just thought you were drunk, but your actions were like none you have had ever before. she said i bearly could stand an i had only been drinking outside with my niece and her friends for one hour.. now it's starting to make since to me, I had lost of memory for 2 hrs, I can't even remember why i fault this man, we were fine all day, and i did leave my drink with my niece while i went in the house, all i can remember is that after i came back outside finish the drink I can't remember very much later but bits and pieces until about 11:30pm, I came to with my car jack in my hand and my boyfriend leaving saying i'm crazy... so i called the doc, to see what i can do and they said it would be out of my system now... but i have an appointment today, do this sound like i could of been druged and why wouldn't my niece tell me or hopefully she didn't know... have anyone ever been through this or know someone who has please give me some advice.... most sincerly honey_bee

I'm about 20lbs, over weight and would like some advice on how, I can loose this weight and keep my breast and thighs in shape as well. how much weight can a person loose in a week... thanks for your help..

don't be affaird to look at me, the real me, inside my soul is one, the outside is two, if you only knew that i am beatiful, maybee just, maybee you would not be affaird to look at me. the sun is setting and birds are singing there song. Our we a long way from home, just because we are affaird to see that you look like me, and i look like you, just different shades of beauty.. don't please, don't be affaird to look at me. people this to all of us i cry, you cry we all our here on some path another and as we get older life seems just a little more greater so let's just be thankful that we could even read my peom to us today... GOOD LUCK IN LIFE PEACE AND MUCH LOVE....

thankyou scott i am going to stop drinking liquior all together. I haven't had liquior in about 6mths because what i did then. I didn't think he was coming over that night and he was fussing at me my sister said. and what makes it so bad is i don't even remember the whole fight, until i sobered up some and realize what was going on.. i have decided not to call him anymore, i ask him to forgive me but i have to look at it from his piont of veiw.. and what hurts is i know that i have changed from the past this situation went took a turn for worst.. I love him and I hope someday he'll let me show him that i never wanted this to happen to us.. even the people that stay by me knew i was drunk because i don't even act that way.. i just stay to myself ... that you agian for listening to me it helps......

you are so true i hope i can make this better because he is a good man if he give me the chance to promise him i will never do that agian thank you

let me start off saying the man i love i hurt him agian the night before last i was drinking at home an stepped out. there were some guys outside an i began to flirt and he pulled up, and was upset that i was talking to them, one thing led to the other, and we got into a argument i was drunk and hit him and spit on him, after i sobber up i was hurt because what i did to him, now he won't even talk to me, i said i was sorry and that the liquior took over me but now he wants me out of his life we been together for 4yrs and this was a problem in the past and i told my self i wouldn't hurt my man agian. i wish it never happen but it did and how do i make it right. I know he can't stop ,loving me a day ago,, what can i do to make this up to him.. i love him and don't want no one else. i am very ashamed of myself........

Let me first say that I wasn't saying it to hurt feelings just re- read it and you will see that I said that us women have alot of dog in us to. but men have alot of doggie ways than women. so why do they call us bi*** and bi*** is a female dog, right so us lady's have a little dog in us. I hope you'll get this one, so sorry if I hurtted any dog or man feelings. just good talk. When in the mood for sex, how do your body feel and your drive? sometime I feel like a pretty pu**y cat, and sometime a cuddley she dog...

all men are dogs, but all women are a little {mod edit}, so dose that mean we are dogs to. Men can be kept by our love, respect, friendship and our smell. Men who is in love, love the sent, of the other person, as well as we do for the men. However there is life and men right now don't seem to love anymore only there self, how did this come to past and, why are we so scarded to tell men the truth they really truthfully can't live without us. And women, when our we gona tell the truth we can live without them. As long as it is with another women, which is a dog just like the men. So know one really is at fault, people life just happens but we have got to be respectful to our self an others. Stay real to yourself and the ones you love I hope you guy's and girl's understand GOOD LUCK IN LOVE AND LIFE

P.S. S you may need to print all that out but once it come together you'll see it was worth it .....

get the invatation card and write on it your invited to a party for two. the place, the time make sure it's good for you both. give it to her hand deliver it and tell her nothing just make sure she gets there. purchase the room, take all the things you bought there with you make sure it has a little fridge. put the sleep wear in the box and tie the two balloons that say i love u, on it. place one of the roses on the box. get your candles set up don't light them until she is on the way, have her to text you. take the rose petals off the stem and keep them they will go in the tub on top of the bubbles don't run the bath until she is on the way, after it's done put floating candles on the top and light them, oh you'll gona have so much fun.... take out the table cloth and put it on the floor, use the room ice cooler to sit drink in and place the two wine glasses next to it. then get a plate and put the ham an cheese on it with the toothpicks next to it. then do the same with your fruit okay stay with me dude. get the party spinkles and put it on the floor from the door to the bed and on the bed. get the eye covers and put them on the outside door knob with a note that says put on before you knock. make sure you have the room together before she is on the way. put on your matching sleepwear and answer the door walk her in have all lights off sorry i forgot let all the metallic balloons be on the ceiling okay. lights off get her gift and put it in her hands then take off the eye cover and the rest is in your ballcourt have some nice music playing.... GOOD LUCK I KNOW THIS WILL MAKE HER FALL IN LOVE ALL OVER AGIAN AND ALWAYS TREAT HER GOOD SO YOU WONT LOOSE HER AGIAN.......

Hello, I'm a woman and this is something i do to make my man feel good and relaxed. 1 get a room 2 go to the food store get about 4 roses, grapes, strawberries cool whip, chunks of ham, chunks of cheese, toothpicks 3 then go to the dollar store and get some red, sliver, white metalic balloons, let them put air in them. buy also two balloons that say i love you that already got air in it. buy some birthday sprinkle ( just listen and i'll tell you what to do with it all ok) some red plates, and red napkins, red plastic table cloth, two wine glasses, four white candles little, four red, four sliver, some bubble bath and some floating flower candles, an invatation card that is pretty, and a gift box, some eye cover on the toy ille. 4 go to wal-mart or kmart get some body oil, and her something nice to wear, if you know what i mean. and you the same that matches. 5 go to the liquor store and by something you both like to drink. if you don't drink get some sparkle juice. okay now it's time to work your love on her soul i have to finish this on another page

HEY, I'll first start by saying life is so grand. I've been to hell and back, I just had an abortion at 4 1/2 mths because my ex didn't want it and it's our second baby we terminated. Talk about depression but i know he's not for me and the beauty of life is not in our hands, i wish i didn't but now that's a choice i have to deal with everyday. your mother is a woman that gave you life no matter there is a greater power that we will have to answer to. Now ain't you happy you don't have to answer to your greater power the way i have to, because your as good as my kids and i'm sorry i didn't give them life, but maybee my words will give you life. HOLD ON FOR SOMEONE LOVES YOU AND DON'T EVEN KNOW YOU AND IT'S MEEEE. sorry for so sloopy just look to the sun and you'll feel him smile apon you and know your job here is not done.

KIDS ARE A GIFT, AND IT'S UP TO US. TO UNWRAP THAT GIFT. I really hope you pick the right choice for your self . GOOD LUCK