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I don't think I could ever tell her what I did. He said he would never tell and I know that I never will. I know that blaming the alcohol is not OK, but I know for a fact that I NEVER would've done that had I been sober. I have come to the realization that alcohol is not good for me. I just have to stop drinking and that should solve the problem. Thanks for the response.

I made a huge mistake last night and I slept with my cousins ex-husband. I was drinking so much and tried not to do anything, but I was so drunk that I had no inhibitions at all. I feel so badly about it and I don't know what to do. I could never tell her what I did. We were hanging out, he started toplay with my breasts and I let him. Then he said he wanted to have sex. I told him no that I was on my menstral cycle. He told me to leave the tampon in and he would just go in as far as he could. I didn't really want to, but I did it anyway. I feel so disgusting today. I feel like trash. I know he only used me for sex, that does not bother me. I just feel bad that I crossed a boundary I never thought I would. I fell so bad that if my cousin found out, I would surely want to kill myself.