I hear you about the pain. I broke up with the ex a week and a half ago, and it does get easier, although the pain just creeps in there in deep ways, even when it isn't so painful. It is just hard to imagine not being so close with the specific person. And it is surreal, like we are so close, and then so far away.
He wants to hang out and be friends. It would be too hard for me. I could talk twice a month I told him. Just seems too hard.
Anyway, hang in there my dear. Focus on the present and know that you are strong and there is full life out there for you. LIfe is a mystery and the more we hurt, the more we love. If we are open, we get all sides and thankfully, we get to feel. Being numb is like being dead. Even pain is part of being happy. Okay, hang in there.
