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He broke up with me.In fact,I just saw him just now.My mind's in a mess.I didnt know how to react to such a situation,and I have no courage to look at him.

I don't understand.My ex has been reading my blog daily without fail,thats what he said.And he said no matter what,he still cares.And what does that mean?Its been about 3 months we last broke up. Recently,he even told me he's having a short vacation soon and asked me whether I would love to come along.I said yes,but this time not expecting anything in return,but I know deep inside I still love him. Any tips on what i should do,and what does he mean that he still cares?

It has been exactly 2 months ever since me and my boyfriend broke up. The first few weeks were a torture but it's getting better. I don't know why,but its hard being friends with him. It's weird,and I dont see myself doing it. Everytime I think of him,I feel that sense of hatred,but it hasnt been that strong than the first few weeks. I block him in my msn messenger. But Its hard as I still see him online everyday. He's my first bf and I've put in my all into the relationship and I ended up all hurt and upset. From seeing the other posts,it makes me think whether true love exists, and whether it only happens on tv. My friends say I'm young and there will always be opportunities. I want to believe in love again, I tried, but I dont want to see myself walking along the same path as what I'm walking now.

My boyfriend and I were together for a yealf and a half.and He broke it off through sms.I always wanted him to tell me face to face.But he didnt want to.I totally understand how you felt.

I dont dare too.I used to watch movies together with him holding his hand.He broke up with me.Still pretty upset.Sometimes I wonder how's he doing?

I totally agree.I cried my way home today when I pass those places. Sometimes I really want to break NC and ask.But always reminded myself that I cant.or else the last few weeks of hard work not contacting him,are gone. My gut feeling tells me that he doesnt care anymore.But I can't help to think of him.I lost faith into going into another relationship.I'm trying so hard to pick myself up again.

Sometimes I wonder whether he felt the pain I was going through or was I just the pathetic one suffering?I've just went shoppping with my friends.However due to church commitments,I've got to leave early.and I have no choice to pass those places we used to hang out very often.I started to cry again when I saw the places where we hug each other and laughed.He's my first love and I'm his first girlfriend. Besides today's saturday,we used to hang out on saturdays.I feel the pain coming back again although we broke up last month.I've no faith in going into another relationship anymore.I still love him.

Thanks.At least it made me feel better.

I'm really sorry for this long post.But I've just returned home from church.It 12 am here.And I feel really upset although me and my bf(ex) has already broken up for 25 days.It's still on my mind everynow and then.Especially when my exams are just round the corner.To be exact,on monday. I'm trying to keep myself busy these few days. I managed to survive through it though. Although I can get along with life pretty well now then we first broke up, but there are times when I realised that he would never be there anymore in my life.And I don't want him to be out of my life although I've learned to live without him.Sometimes, I really want to know whats he's doing..The day before we started cold war,he still told me he love me so much and I even asked what he wanted for his birthday present.And he told me all he wanted was me and nothing else.We were smiling and laughing, and even talked about our future together. A few days later,he was talking to me on the phone,because of an incident that made me so embarrassed.I remembered pressing the bus bell when the bus was turning into the interchange.And me.a person who hardly talkes that bus,didnt know.So I pressed.And all his friends and him started to laugh.And my whole day was ruined. They kept talking about it and started laughing again.I felt like the biggest fool.By the way,this happened last year. And that day,I don't know why he brought up that topic again.And laughed at me again.I was too pissed for him teasing me,and hang up the phone.It wasnt the first time he laughed at me about this matter.But after that incident,I never wanted to meet his friends. SO, He didn't care and didnt call me back after that.And then he smsed me the next day and asked me why was i cold towards him.I was really angry cause I told him to stop teasing.but he still continued. After a few days,he smsed me "WHERE ARE WE NOW?" And I was still angry over the issue and was too stressed over my upcoming exams.and partly because of pms. and told him we should break up.But after that,I smsed him and told him that I was sorry and wanted to make up to him for being so mean towards him.And he smsed me saying we should break up.Before we broke up once,and he promised never to make me cry again.But every now and then,he always does.He plays World of War craft everyday.and hardly have time with me.Even when I go to his house on saturday(the only day I see him),he still plays.His friends told him to stop playing whenever I go to his house, but I felt maybe I should give him some space. But his reasons for breaking up with me are that he didnt want me to cry for him anymore and that he got enough of the fights we had. I don't know whether is it my fault or not?But I must say I'm a spoiled brat.But I tried my best to please him and give in to him.I love him so much. there are times when I dream of him.Dreaming that he asked me to be his girlfriend again,and I was in his arms again.But when I woke up,it was all just a dream.It really seems real and there were also times when I dreamt that we were so happy together again. I don't understand why do guys say they love you so much and bear to leave?Don't they feel the pain?Won't they feel that by walking out just like that would hurt the other half?

It's gonna be hard but I'm going through the same pain as you so i guess meanwhile just vent everything here.Trust me you'll feel better.=] It has been more than 2 weeks since me and my boyfriend broke up.and I must say I'm doing fairly well than before.

I'm having my preliminary exams right now this week and next week.It's crucial cause I got to use them to get into a college.And the O levels are coming up as well.And that's,of course, the most important. Everyday has been getting better.I'm spending a lot of time on my friends and church activities on weekends.Although when night falls,it makes me think of him.I keep myself busy with memorising bio notes which is tomorrow's paper.It hurts like hell alot.But I've come to senses that he's no longer mine anymore.

I guess you should not.These few weeks I've been thinking on whether to write him a letter too.But I thought it would just make me sound like i'm desperate for him.He's the one who didn't want me.So i guess if your ex is actually with someone else,perhaps it's not advisable to write a letter.Save that little pride for yourself.

He broke up with me twice.Last year when he broke up with me,he wanted things to be back a week later.But this time it has been weeks.so I guess it's over.He said he's tired of all the fights.I broke NC on msn but he spoke to me in a rather harsh tone.He broke up with me the day before my preliminary exams.A part of me can't forgive him for that.I can't believe he did that to me after being together for 1 and a half years together.We were so happy back then..

Yeah.I guess I can only think that way.I just have to get by each day thinking that I can get over this little bit of pain.

the feeling sucks eh?He's my first love.And I must admit I really love him.I'm afraid of going into another relationship again.I don't want to go through this pain again.