I wish I would of found this website a long time ago (19 mo. separated, 10 mo. divorced). I know, the math does not = the thread title. You will see why at the end of this post.
My story in short.
I spent all of 2005 going through a bitter divorce from my second wife of 8 yrs. We had what I thought was a great marriage, but she really started disconnecting from me the last year we were together. I fell into the trap and tried to be understanding and supportive of her needs. She was on a emotional roller coaster, you know what I mean, the more you try to meet her needs and repair the marriage the worst it gets?
Nothing made sense, everything was my fault, she didnt feel we were in love anymore, she was not good enough for me, (insert other excuses here...) blah, blah, blah. We separated and she went to stay with a couple who were our good friends. I attempted to save the marriage, went to counceling on my own, read self help books, and prayed to God. Nothing helped and after one month separated, she filed for divorce.
You see, I travel frequently for my job and she always supported me 100% because it is my dream job that I seeked my entire life. Our outlook on it was this_ our time together is precious and we use it wisely. We werent in that everyday rut and every minute spent together was romantic, tender, and perfect. Never angry, just enjoying our love for each other. When I was gone she would spend her time with another couple who were our best friends. I was so glad she wasnt always at home alone and really enjoyed there friendship.
We were equal partners in our marrige and I had total trust in her. Yeah, you guessed it, she was having an affair with the other husband, my friend!
After the divorce was final last Nov. I immediately declared N.C., changed my cell number, blocked her email, etc. She was very angry but I dont care. I lost my wife, my friends, and have been financially devistated. But I dont have to hear the lies anymore.
Here is where the thread title comes in to play. After our initial seperation I picked up one those self help books. It suggested I contact an old friend from the past, they would be glad to hear from me and will try to comfort me. The person I contacted I havent spoke to in 12 yrs. She was my first wife. Sure I used to be in love with her, but she was also my best friend. I found out her number and called. Me "Do you know who this is?" Her " oh my god I cant believe this is happening. Ive missed you so much." You see she was very receptive when I reached out to her. We already know each other on that level and she knows I am a good husband. We are now best friends after reconnecting a year and half ago. Sure I was needy, but am conscious that I could easily fall in love with her all over again, but am happy also just having her in my life again as a friend. Dont know what I would of done without her during those rough times.
Need your feed back, Thanks.