eMICHELLEa
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wow..that is sick..if you have feelings for this guy you really should find a way to tell him who you really are and how you feel..this is why i don't trust people..they are so mean. good luck...
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maybe she feels that is all you are interested in..and yes a experience like rape would make her a little uncomfortable sometimes..try to understand.
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Ever get grossed out about gf/bf body - like BIG areolas?
eMICHELLEa replied to benevolent's topic in Sex and Romance
i agree with RayKay...get over it. most girls are very self conscious about their body..Hell, just by reading this makes me worry that evry guy that sees me naked will be grossed out by something. thanks.. -
scars are gone, i miss them and need some insight/advice
eMICHELLEa replied to dpressedone89's topic in Suicide & Self-Harm
Well atleast you stopped..I still harm myself. It is a part of who I am..The scars remind me that I am stupid,ugly,lonely,and unstable. If I'm not reminded of these things I will feel empty. I understand wanting your scars..I just would hate not having mine for the same reason I cut. I need to show my pain. -
I started cutting and bruising myself badly becasue I hated myself and felt I deserved nothing but the worst..Also becasue I was in so much emotional pain that I felt the need to even it out by having physical pain also..It was never far attention becasue only people I don't know are aware of it..I make sure it is hidden either on my side or upper legs.Now I still do It because it has become a habbit..And I just can't imagine not having any pain at all..
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I am not to good with cathcing on to when guys are intersted.... So here are a few questions.. So boys...what do you do when you are interested in girl?? What kind of things should I be noticing? Are there any things that make guys lose interest that I should avoid doing??
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I assume it's becasue I had slight early childhood abuse and a boyfriend attempt rape... --I have never really had a serious romantic reltionship..But everytime something good begins to happen I push away...Things tend not to work out when it comes to guys becasue I hate contact. I don't just mean sexual things..I hate when anyone ,even just friends, touch me. When people try to hug me, put their arm around me, or even just sneak up behind me in a joking manner I feel like dying. I hate this! I don't want to be like this..I can't explain it that well..I love for people to be around but for some reason my eyes start to water whenever they get to close. What the hell is my problem!? I want to stop being so distant from everyone becasue it's starting to put up emotional blocks as well..I have no idea how to get over this..Is there anything that I can do to get over my stupid issues??
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I don't know your relationship..But if he isn't pleased with who you are or how you look than he can't truly love you...And even if he does..it seems to me you deserve MUCH better than that. He knows you have bad self image, so he is way out of line to add to it by insulting you. He needs to explain himself in a way that shows it is actually other issues .Becasue if it isn't he must have some issues of his own.
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Thank you But how can I make him feel specail??
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I wasn't trying to debate..I'm sorry if I offended you..I just would hate to know a life is getting wasted. Good luck with your situation..I'll pray that it all works out for the best.
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Jealous of others... (rant, no replies or views required or expected)
eMICHELLEa replied to Stinkweed's topic in Jealousy
I am jealous of the ugly {moderator Edit} down the road. -
Ah...soul mates..I don't believe there is just one person for every one. There are so many people you could fall in love with..It's just the matter of who you find first. Don't give up, someone will find you.-
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hmmm... abstinence is nice
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abortion is never a choice simply becasue it is a selfish murder...it is not the helpless child's fault you are pregnant..and yes your childs life may be difficult but that is better than no life at all...you'd be cheating a human out of the right to live and experience life. If you love the child that much than consider adoption so it would have a better life. I know you wouldn't want to let your child go..but what is better..letting him/her live with others where they have a chance for happiness..or just don't let him/her live at all...Go ahead and see the abortion websites and see the pain you'd be putting another human through...tearing..burning..or suffication..Your baby had a heart beat before you even knew you were pregnant..and all he/her knows is yours..I understand you want what is best..but what is iniside you is a human with a soul and only God has the right to decide when his/her life shall end. I hope I've opened your eyes so you can see what you'd be taking away..a human..their chance to speak.. to fall in love..help others..have children..smile.. Good Luck
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... I am so confused... Here's some background---I used to be very unstable with my depression. All I really needed was some attention from the right people. I met a boy with some of the same veiws..He and I where already good friends but never really had gotten to know each other beyond the surface. Till one day he saw a fading scar on my wrist. We were infront of a bunch of people and he started trying to take my arm in disbelief.He talked to me in private and told me to call him that night. I never did and he ended up calling me.. Over a few months we became really close and were either together or on the phone..He told me I could tell him anything and that he understood...So ofcourse I went for it and opened up completely..I had never trusted anyone before..He had most of the same problems and made me feel normal and loved..One day it was as if he couldn't take it anymore..He just stopped talking to me. I guess I was a downer.. But of all people I thought he'd understand how dificult it was to deal with.. the problem--- It has been over a year now..I have gone to the ward and gotten on meds..I have been so much better..I don't complain to anyone anymore unless it is about my losing him..I just wish I could go back because then I'd have just shut up and gotten meds before I screwed everything up.. I have tried so hard to proove that I have changed..I don't know what to do...I just want the relationship back...I know I should move on but I've never met someone that helped me so much or that I've cared for like this..And I have no idea what else I can do just to be his friend..How can I show him that I'm not that person anymore???