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  1. Hmm...I'll have to disagree with that one. I'm to the point where I'm absolutely consumed by this.
  2. Thank you. All good things to think about.
  3. Dude...I soooo feel you on that. I know myself. I know I need people around me. It's a part of my personality. I've been like this since I could remember. It's not even neediness. I'm just incredibly lonely...I don't even have people I could call close friends.
  4. Ugh...I'm not even gonna ask him. It'll probably make me look even more needy. It's really weird. I had a good feeling about him. I definitely wasn't needy on our date. He's the one who asked me what I was doing the next day, then saturday, then if I wanted him to call me the next day. I never even mentioned those things. I don't know....I'm writing it off as he's a big stupid.
  5. Yea...probably. I don't know though. The first one wanted to be in a relationship too. He was newly divorced. Why did the second one tell me all those things like he was going to call me and all that, then he didn't. And just what is so wrong about WANTING to be in a relationship. Is that such a bad quality?
  6. Well...I've posted here before last year at the end of a four year relationship. That was pretty horrible, but I've managed to let most of it go. I think...Anyways. I started talking to an ex of mine before the 4 year. We dated in high school when we were 16! He moved out to Cali from Michigan, so there was some distance there. After talking for a while, it really seemed like he was interested, so I flew out to see him. Wow...what a horrible mistake that was. He treated me like crap the whole time I was there and tried to pass me off to his dumb friend. There was also another girl he had been talking to...I recently just stopped any interaction with him. Then I met a new guy, who I hung out with just the other night for the first time. We fooled around, but didn't go all the way. He was so sweet to me the whole time. He kept making plans with me for the future and told me that he would call me the next day. He didn't. I haven't heard from him, other than me writing him and asking..."How come I haven't heard from you?" The whole thing is really confusing. I looked at his myspace today also and his relationship status had changed from single to in a relationship. So now, that's my story....Ugh, What am I supposed to do? I'm sick of being alone. I'm so lonely and I really want someone, even just a great friend!!, to share my life with. I know myself pretty well. I know I'm absolutely miserable when I'm not in a relationship. I've been that way since I was 13 or so. I'm 22 now. I've always been kind of a loner and I hate that. I've usually had only a very few close friends, but ever since I broke up with my ex last year, I've had no one because I was with him the whole time. I think I'm happy with myself...I've really got nothing to be depressed about, but I'm still really unhappy because I have no one. I noticed that every guy I start talking to and liking since the 4 year ex turns out to not have any interest in me. Is that a fault of mine? I feel like giving up. It's been almost a year and nothing good is happening. I'm sick of being unhappy.
  7. I'm not trying to shoot ideas down. This is how my life has been so far. Thank you for your advice though. I'm trying as hard as I possibly can. I'm sorry about your pain. It's terrible. Sometimes, I question if this is really happening. It's a nightmare.
  8. High school was not a good time for me. I wasn't happy then at all and I am positive that I'm happier now. I was always different back then and no one understood where I was coming from about anything. I didn't get along with many people because I hated how shallow and stupid they could be, especially in the richie town where I live. Because of that, I always had very, very few friends at a time. I remember not having any at all sometimes because of how they annoyed the crap out of me.
  9. This is the exact reason why I never got very close to females. I always just had one girl that I was close to. Of course, she would always end up manipulating and using me....Honestly, I don't know if it's the people you meet or if everyone's like this. Ohh...Ignore her...totally. She doesn't care about you the way you probably care about her.
  10. I am happy with myself, but I'm also extremely lonely. Honestly, no. Me and her would hang out every single day. We even worked at the same place. Her mom kicked her out of their house and she lived with me for three months, then she hooked up with her boyfriend who she's with now and we had a big falling out. All the people I used to know in high school, which wasn't even that many, are all busy with their new lives and all the new friends they've made in the four years when I was gone.
  11. The last time I was single, I had a best friend who I thought loved me. She's the one who introduced me to my ex. I remember being very depressed because I didn't have anyone in my life aka a man. She's a part of my ex's family now because she had his cousin's baby. So she's gone.
  12. Yea...I try and try, but interest in my own life is just not there anymore. I don't know. I do love myself, but I find huge value in finding like-minded people to talk to...probably too huge. It's so sad, everyone I've known HAS let me down. I'm 21 years old and everyone I've ever cared about, best friends and boyfriends, have always stabbed me in the back. I've never even broken up with any of them...They were always the ones to break up with me. I was supposed to go out with two of my old highschool friends last night to a bar. I got home from work and called one. She told me she would call me back when they got there and tell me where they were. I never got the call. I don't need this right now! missmebaby: Our situations are exactly the same. I felt like I was a part of his family and they treated me like I was, but now, THEY don't even return my calls either. I don't think I did anything to deserve this. I did get angry at him for the things he did to me, but if they hate me for that, then they're messed up.
  13. Thank you. I really need a hug right now. I never saw this kind of cruelty in him when we were together. That's why I'm so shocked to see it now. I keep asking myself if this is really happening. I'll try everything you mentioned. It seems like everytime I try though, I can't continue with what I'm doing because he pops up in my head. I'm sick and honestly tired of feeling so bad, but it keeps happening anyways. All my other breakups, I had a friend to talk to who helped me get through it by going out with, but this friend is gone now. I want to enjoy my life so badly, but I don't know how.
  14. Sure...we can. I'm sorry for what you're going through. After being with people like my ex who I loved talking to and his friends, I can't deal with having no one to talk to at all. All I think about is him, although he has literally cut me out of his life. I don't think I'll ever hear from him again. It's really getting me down.
  15. To anyone who reads this long post, thank you. Any advice is appreciated. My relationship with my boyfriend of four years ended two months ago. I made a post about it before. It's [thread=143903]here[/thread] if anyone wants to read it. I'm having soooo many problems right now. NC is definitely not working for me. I tried and tried so many times. After I made that original post about him ignoring me, I actually heard from him and everything seemed like it was fine, since we decided to be friends, but after a while, I started to think that I really can't be friends with him like I want, because every single time I talk to him, I get upset. So about two weeks ago, I called him and asked him to please, please just try to put in some effort. I can't be without him anymore, blah, blah, blah, basically begging him to get back together with me. That was such a huge mistake. He told me that he would think about it and that he'd call me the next day. I told him that I knew he wouldn't really call and he had the nerve to argue with me and tell me that he would. Well, I haven't heard from him since and everytime I try to call, he ignores me. This wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't so completely alone. He was my best friend and I didn't have anyone else. I'm only 21 years old and I've known him since I was a senior in high school. My high school friends have all moved on with their lives and it doesn't seem like they want anything to do with me. I tried hanging out with them yesterday, but they ended up ditching me and never calling me back. I tried hanging out with my sister's friends, but she's younger than me and they're all so immature, I can't even stand to be around them. I know I don't have much of a choice right now, but it makes me even more depressed to try. All I do is sit there, quiet. So I'm basically here, at square one, I have to rebuild every single thing in my life. I know everyone here will probably tell me to get out and just do things for me, but it feels like it's impossible for me to do that right now. I feel like I've lost interest in everything. I'm not in school yet either, I go back in January and I don't meet people at my job. So what can I do? I don't want to be totally alone without any social contact for the next couple of months. I'll seriously go crazy. I have no clue how to meet someone like me to be friends with. Every new person I meet seems like they are just out for themselves and that is so not my type. All I have is my family, but I know they're getting sick of listening to me. There's nothing else I'd rather do than get over my ex. What he's doing to me is so cruel. I don't even now why we broke up. He just decided that he didn't want a relationship anymore (Fake reason!!!), while I still loved him with everything I had, but I can't even stop to think about anything else. I'm losing him and I've lost myself in the process. I have no friends and I'm alone, save for my sister, but she's only 17 and I need friends my age. I'm starting to lose all hope of anything good happening for me in the near future. I don't even know what I can do to go about fixing my life. Everything I ever loved is gone and I'm all by myself.
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