chainsaw_kitten87

Hi, Haven't been on in a while, hope someone here remembers me. WEll i'm kinda performing my own little text. See I have taken several pregnancy texts. One came out possitive, 2 came out negative. I want to know why this happened. Are there any reasons or anything I did that would have made just that one come out possitive? thanks, chainsaw

Smile empty soul, let go for a while You walk on shards of glass and rusty needles shaided eyes can't hide how you feel What can your eightballs truley replace Ice crystals fill your hollow glass place melt it away, then blow it back in my face Your heart stops and you drop the glass I'll cut your wrists with the scraps my gift to you....racing thoughts and bloody hands Never sleep to dream, for you awake is dreaming You're starting to come down, you know you have some more A million pens and sheets of paper decorate the floor This life has you nailed to the wall afraid to take the nails out? are you too afriad to fall? why can't you see???....you already fell!!!!!!! And it's not you at all, It's me who's traped in this hell.

what would most people here say would be a way to kill urself pretty fast and not extreamly painful and still be able to have an open caskit??? guns wouldn't work, ur family and friends wouldn't be able to see you, and that's not right, that's something most people need to have in order for them to really realize someone's gone and not comeing back.

my cousinh ran away. she said nothing to me. she is my best friend in the family, in the whole world. I am her best friend. her things are gone, her check is gone. everything is so aweful. she took off. No clue where. we can't find her. iv'e left her messages. I've written her emails. I've done everything! I love her but she is so spoiled. she gets everything handed to her. she was grounded from everything and had her car taken away today for like a few months. so she throws a baby fit and takes off. she had no, and I mean no street smarts. nothing going for her as far as being able to take care of herself. she'll be raped, or die, or something. but i know she wont come home. she ran away around 2 years ago and got picked up on the vegas strip but I'm sure she's figured some way to hide herself better now. I don't know what to do.

Ok so I'm not that experianced in the whole dating thing mk...well here it goes. So as some of you know I like this guy james, he's always cuddley and kissy and just really sweet to me. He told me a few times he likes me too. well we're outside smoking last night and just talking about ex's and how many people we've kissed, slept with, stuff like that. Then like out of no where He looks at me and goes, so you like shopping. and i was like yeah, i love shopping. He's all good you can go with me, i need new clothes. I was like yeah so do I and he's all cool i'll give ya a style all joking and everything telling me I can give him a fashion show, and then help him choose some out fits. So I don't know if this was like an odd way of asking me kinda on a trial date before a real one or if this is a guys way of just let's hang out like normal ur still just a friend kinda zone. He didn't ask misty or rachel to go, or any of the guys. so i don't know. any input? thanks, chainsaw

Ok so I found out he liked me. But this really sucks! See i like him back, i could totally go on a date qith him a few times and see if anything could happen. But here's the deal. We were at a little get together last night, all drinking, laying back just having fun right. Well turns out one of his best friends likes me. I had some what of a clue that he did, but I didn't think much of it cause he never acted on it. He's like one of the sweetest guys ever, I really care about him as a friend and could see myself liking him back. But I really like this other guy I posted about a few days ago more like that and the other more as just a friend. Well i asked the one I like to show me where the bathroom was (i was at his friends dads house and had never been there before, hehe) Well anyway he shows me and on the way he's all you know i do like you, and i was like oh really i like you too, well he goes on just to say that it doesn't really matter if he likes me or not cause his friend does and he doesn't want to put him down (not exact words but that's the basic gift of it). Well I was a little trashed so I didn't feel like talking about it too much so I gave him a hug and a kiss and said ok. But here's the thing, i can definitly see myself with his friend, but I want to be with him. I like him a lot. I don't know for sure how I can go about this with out upsetting someone. they are both my friends and I don't want to cause any put downs. any input? thanks, chainsaw

Well the first night i actually talked to him, we were all playing this drinking game and (7's 11's and doubles) and he got to make a rule. He said whoever loses blah blah they get to kiss the girl and i was the only girl playing at the time. and I was like why, and he's all well i keep losing so i may as well make it so i get to kiss you. he lost and got to kiss me but he didn't mall me or anything it was just a little kiss and he got all red. and then I ended up making out with him a few times that night and the night after, but he never tried anything. then this morning when we woke up he was kissing me and we did end up messing around a bit more, well him with me anyway, he didn't ask me to do anything, but he took a long time to get to the point where he would do it. He kept hinting at it and then he'd back off like he was shy with it or like he didn't wanna make me upset. so i don't know, cause he's not like constintly malling me, but if I give the ok to kiss me he'll do it. I think i'll have to ask him what it's all about, if it's cause he's got a little crush, or because im a girl there at the moment.

Ok so i read guys horribley, so I need a little insight. Ok so i've hung out with this guy maybe 3 times this week k. I've met him before a number of times at my friends parties, but we actually started hanging out and talking. Well it turns out we went to school together in elementary and didn't know so we had kinda a lot to talk about. Well He started getting cuddley and kissey and stuff, and he's like really sweet. he's always giving me complements and telling me im cute. Well the last few times i've hung out with him, i've ended up falling asleep by him and cuddling most of the night. And in the morning and before I leave he's always huggy and gives me a kiss and all. Well I'm just wondering is this actually a guy liking me, or just a guy trying to get in my pants??? im so horrible at this and don't really want to read this guy wrong cause i kinda like him so far. thanks. chainsaw

ok so My best guy friend down here got out of jail. and we've been hanging out a lot cause we haven't seen eachother for like 4 months (jail thing). any way we both like eachother and have made that very clear to one another, we just don't know what we're gonna do cause his best friend is my ex. well anyway he might rent a room from my aunt and I. WEll so i was supposed to go over and talk to him so she could meet him and descide if it would work or not. So i call first and his room mate answers her cell (I have to call him on that cause they have no house phone and and he has no cell phone). Well she's like don't call here anymore, he said he doesn't want anything to do with you. i was like * * *, cause we were hanging out that day and the night before having a ball. well so I write him this email right here (believing what she said)..... Ok fine you go ahead and be that way. I wanted to at least be friends, but telling someone else to tell me that you don't want anything to do with me anymore is a little (blank) up. Ok you know what, maybe you didn't even say that, im gonna just not even get mad until i really know what's up. Your room mate told me that you told her to tell me to stop calling you and you wanted nothing to do with me. Well im hoping that's just cause she's weird. I never thought you would say anything like that to me, I mean (blank), fine, if you did then you go ahead and keep hanging out with (blank) sara and bre and (blank) get in trouble. (blank) stab me in the back when i was trying to be your friend and even rent to you. (blank) ok im mad now,im just gonna go before i say anything too mean. If this isn't true then (blank) tell ur room mate she's a (blank) and to shut the (blank) up! but here's the deal, i wont contact you or write you or (blank) anything anymore after this. If you want any friendship it's on you, cause im not dealing with this whole (ex bf) bull * * * *, cause that's exactaly what you're pulling. You two are too much alike, I dropped him even though I care about him a lot, I care about you a lot too, but I can drop this friendship just as easily. I hope it doesn't have to be like that. Ur choice, email me back telling me what you (blank) want. I did really consider you a good friend jason, and even though im (blanking blank) I still want too consider you a friend but right now I just don't (blank)even know. bye, kayla well then he writes me back this.... (blank). are you (blank) joking. i never said a (blank) thing like any of that. your (blank) crazy. i do like you, but the cheese has fallen off the (blank) cracker. your crazy. by the way, thanks for sayig me and (MY ex) are exactly alike. makes me feel really good. i ask my room mate what the (blank), and she said she said nothing. then drop me like you dropped (my ex). (blank) YOU Now i feel like a dumb*** i feel so mean. I don't know how I can ever take back what i said, i should have been smart and waited for him to call me and asked him about it. i've written him two emails now apologizing, and I want to write him another cause i have more to say now, but i don't wanna bug him if he's so mad at me. the thing is is this room mate of his is like obsessed with him. I can't go over an visit with out him having to lock his door or us having to ignore his room mate cause she never shuts up, ever, she never leaves him alone, and she doesn't like me. she's like telling me oh you seem anti social, whatever!!!!! im so not, and jason is like no she's not. and rrrrrrrr. well anyways, this girls got a bf, but she still trys to get on jason all the time and gets all jealous of girls. so I guess it's very possible he didn't say any of that and she's bsing both of us, telling me he said that and then telling him that she said nothing. i don't know. what do you guys think??? Whats a good way to apologize for how mean i was in that email and make him less P'oed. I over reacted, but i want him to know i care and i didnt' mean it, but I know he is like his best friend when it comes to being hard headed. the only diff is his best friend is totally evil, and he's like the sweet heart of the world who wouldn't hurt anyone ententually, so I should have known he never said that. please help. -chainsaw-

You actually have to have intercourse, like if his penis doesn't penitrate you then you are still a vergin. -chainsaw-

what is a monogamous couple???

when my exes best friend died a few years ago he broke up with me. He coulnd' t be himself, pay attention to me and my needs, and his own and take care of himself. We were both too broken up to hold a relationship.

Okay so lately I've been having a bit (well not a bit, a whole lot) of trouble sleeping. I used to have insomnia, but im very against taking anything to sleep if it's not like natural. I don't take any medications for anything if it's not absoulutly nessisary. it's different if it's like herbal, like teas, or something like that though. well for a while it went away (for about 2 years actually) but recently it's come back. When I used to have it there was nothing I could do to help me sleep, i was just a drone. I tried the counting sheep, i've tried sleepy time tea, i've tried meditating to stop thinking, i've tried about everything. Does anyone here have any other suggestions. I can't keep going like this. thanks, chainsaw

An evil smile still burnt in my mind our lieing tongues touched, it will never subside still longing for your venoumons touch, ice cold love, i'll never get enough. My viens freeze with words blown down my neck I love the pain you cause, the pleasure is all mine bring your heartless laughter to come play for awhile mistaken achievments make you the fool atempts to burn my broken soul just don't make sense stupid boy i'm already dead born with no consiouns, can't you smell my rotting flesh? I'm more evil then the devil himself, you tried to hurt me, welcome to my hell. I thought we made a perfectly odd stitched match but you couldn't handle the pain I sent back there's a fine line between love and hate emotions on the dotted line, it was too intense for you to take tred careful with what you say I'll break the (b word with an s) back with no expression upon my face We still tred that line of hate our ying yang souls will never fade You'll never live with out me and I won't live with out you. Ok that was basically about my ex and I. We both put eachother through so much pain and only saw what the other was doing up till now. Well now we have been through so much pain together and were already so hurt over past things that it brought us both really close and we are best friends now. We couldn't live without the other.

I honestly think that 16 is way too young to be thinking about anything like that. it's really really complicated, one of you are bound to get attatched weither you plan on it or not, and if you don't have time for a relationship eh it's just not right. you only do those kinds of things with people you care about and can end up haveing a relationship with, it's too complicated and just not right at all in my opinion. I would really think about that. adults have trouble with this, imagin how much harder it would be for a teen who doesn't even have that much dating or sexual expericance. Not a good idea. you asked for a opinion and I gave it to you as clear and nicely as I could, so please don't take offense to any of it. Just my opinion. love chainsaw_kitten87