brokenheart32

Yeah I know is going to take sometime, what really hurts me the most is why come back into my life to just make it even worst for me. Sometimes I even think she enjoys doing this, I had to seak Therapy for all this crap and my counseller tells me she is the type of person that likes to be in control, and since she knows she has this power over me that is why she do this. But yes I did deleted her from all my contact and now Iam maybe going to change my phone number. So I just have to try to be stronger I can lied to you but I still am in love with this eveil woman. I really do think she needs some help because she has some serious issues, but the crazy thing is that she is bringing me down with her whole crazyness, because sometimes I don't even know wheather iam coming or going this is really driving me insane. Sorry if Iam coming on to strong about my feelings but I really need to vent and let this all out.

Thank you lonesoul that is what Iam planning to do even if it kills me. I know she is going to let time go by and call me again because Iam like a lil puppet to her that she controls when ever she wants. So yes I have to go back to NC. Than you so much.

Hi all, is being a while since I have came in to write about my 4 month break up with my ex gf. Many of you had giving me some advice about no NC. I did this for 3 months an one night on my visit to nyc, I get a phone call from the ex gf, I didn't want to pick up my phone but I did I was just wondering what she had to tell me after almost 3 months of not having any contact with me. I would try to make it short and less painfull for me. Here it goes, she told me that the only reason why she wanted to call me was because she didn't want me to think that she didn't care about my feelings and my kids feelings. That she wanted to apologize to me for hurting me and lieing to me the way she did. She went through the whole bull crap that i didn'r believe for one second but (maybe i did). I did want to believe her but at the same time I knew she wasn't trust worthy of it. Anyway she said what she had to say to me and then it was my turn, I told her that I couldn't understand why she had to lie so much to me and betrayed my family and my kids the way she did. She started to cry and said that she deserves everything I tell her. So that conversation when on for like 1/2 hrs, then I just couldn't take it anymore and told her that if her counscience was clear that we had nothing else to talk about. So she calls me again the next day to tell me thank you for not slamming the phone on her and i told her np, and then we chat for a bit and I said I had things I had to do. I then came home and wrote her an email telling her that I wanted no more NC with her because regardless of everything she said my heart is still broken and I needed sometime to fix it, and not only that she is living with the woman that she has being with for the whole 3 years we were together, and I said to her I don't think she would be happy to know that she is calling me again. So she writes me back and tells me that she would do as I said and she wont call me anymore. So that night she calls me again and tells me that she wanted to explain somethings to me, and that the only reason that the woman was living with her is because she is not going to kick someone out, she said they don't have a realationship as lover is more of 2 ppl being comfortable together, I told her that I don't care what it is but she made her choice to be with her and that she needs to leave me alone. She started to cry and I started to cry I really told her this time how I felt. And then we left it like that, she told me she was still inlove with me and I said ditto but that we needed to say goodbye for good this time. But something told me to call her house # to see if the only reason why she was intouch with me was because she had disconnected her home phone, and there was no way of me letting the other woman know that she is calling me again. Sure enough I called her home and it was disconnected so now I am feeling like crap because this is another way of her getting back into my life again after 3 months of me doing so much better with myself and now iam feeling like * * * * again. Now not only did I found out that she bought a home but she has the woman living there with her, I just don't even know what to do with my life, I was doing so much better and now is like she just creeps in on me to stab the knive even harder this time. Iam a totla reck this days and I really don't know what to do. She told me the only reason she bought a home is because she was tired of renting and got a good deal,bu tthis where the plans we had made together so I thought but this is all a joke to her. I told her on an email that I hated her and wanted her to drop dead and to pls not calling ever again. She said she promise me that she is not going to call again, and that her intentions are not to play with me but how can I believe a liar. Please help me out here I really need advice bad. Brokenheart.

I agree with everyone, but most of the time your gut instinct is always right. So if you not just being paranoid go with your gut.

Thanks Grrrrrrrrrr.

What is LDR?

Well I also went through a break up, actually is only being a month, and I'm still not doing so well. I would love too chat with someone.

Well I understand how you may be feeling, but stalking him is not the answer. You need too let things be and try and see if maybe you guys can be friends someday, but you really need to stop what you are doing. Is just going to drive you crazy, is obvious he don't want too talk to you. If he don't even open his door. You need to try and have nc with him, trust me I know is hard is being a month for me, and sometimes I feel like I can't do it with out her. You need to let things be for now and then see what happens from their. I hope you can find some peace.

I read this everytime I feel like Iam missing my ex, and it puts me back on track. Thank you so much, this is very helpful.

I really appreciate you taking the time to write too me, I have being trying to keep myself busy, and not think so much. Today makes a month of NC, and it feels like is never going too end. I have too be honest, I can stop thinking about her, but I know she is not even worth my thoughts. It gets hard on the weekends but I'm going too try too keep myself busy with my kids. Thank you again.

Ok you are looking for bstrong sorry.

Hi Sinbad, are you looking for me?....

I understand exactly what you are going thru, since I'am in the same boat you are in. Is really sad when you feel like you want too hear from your ex, and she don't even make the attemp to call you. I feel you trust me is being a month for me tomorrow and I feel like it happen yesterday, our situations are not the same but the pain I have I feel like is the same you are having. I don't know what too tell you too make you feel better, b/c I need someone too make me feel better. But I can tell you that hopefully things would get better for you (and me i hope), but if you need too vent right me I'am here, maybe we can help each other.

Oh yeah, I know they lie for a living and this is what I asked her if it went too her head or somthing. But to answer your question, the other woman know's about me because i called the house one day and she picked up the phone. She was shock too hear all I had too tell her about her lil roomate, but for the sounds of it she really is with her because she is comfotable, that's what I got from the whole conversation. But you know what, whatever it is I don't care was done is done and she distroyed my life. This is someone I opened my doors and my heart and she just did what she wanted with it. And know I have too pick up the pieces and get my heart where it use too be. I'am actually having a heart time with this I can't stop thinking and analizing why someone would play with a human bein this way. My kids opened up too her and all she can say is that she is sorry, like everything is ok. She lied too me my kids on how we were going to move together and then just tells me she was affraid to lose me, so that is why she lied. I think that she really needs some serious help, you just don't do this to somone you say you loved. She never loved me or care for me or my kids, she is just a and evil person. And I can believe that I have day's when I just want too die, because this is the person she has created, someone that just wants too die. This pain is killing me I really think I need some help.

Trust me I would had never thought she could be capable of such eveilness, I'm still shock today for this whole mess. She emailed my oldest daughter and apologize to her for hurting me and them aswell, but I really think is just her conscience messing with her. She hasn't contacted me or emailed me for almost a month, on her last emailed she said she is going to punish herself for all the pain she has cause everyone including herself. She also said she care/d love/d me, but that she didn't have the guts too tell me because she knew she would lose me. She also said that their were truth and they were lies but that her feelings for me are real. The crazy thing is that this woman is a lawyer with a great job, I never thought she could be capable of so many lies.