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I really don't like that part of the idea. Totally blocking out someone isn't a good idea or solution to anything like this, I mean, I've done that myself,with a guy I liked in one of my classes last year. The end result was both of us progressing to completely ignoring each other, and I regret it, because I don't speak to him anymore, at all..the sad thing is I actually told him I liked him, and he acted fine, then I blocked him out, because I wasn't getting what I wanted out of it. I like the idea of telling him, if he does decide to follow you. If he doesn't though, i'd make an effort to still try to tell him Thursday. Of course doing it alone would be better, but walk and talk with him after class, and just lay it out, see what happens, take a chance. =] He's very cute by the way. I checked out his page =], and as the total Myspace * * * * * that I am, when a guy leaves not sure,undecided or doesn't answer it completely as his sexuality, I would definitly keep a note on it. Im not saying abosolutely, but in most cases theres a reason why that isnt marked 'straight', from reasons like he simply doesn't want everyone knowing. I know I just left mine unanswered,for a reason though =].

Mind if I check out his myspace page? I wanna see what this guy looks like now.

Lol. I apologize if the title sounds like a Bring It On movie. But anyhow. It's only a matter of 2 weeks, before school starts again. And i'll be seeing him again. I've been away from home all summer, so i havent really seen anyone from school or anything, so today a few of us are gonna go see a movie. What that has to do with anything I dont know, im just rambling on. During the end of the year lastyear, Zach suddenly stopped talking to me, and I eventually gave up on him..and I can say that I was finally over him. But with school starting so soon, I've recently started thinking about him again, and I'm a little afraid that this year is just going to play out like last year. I'm not sure if seeing him again is gonna bring back all those feelings for him after being away from him for so long, or make things worse. Has anyone here ever gotten over someone, then when they saw or were around that person again, they started getting feelings all over again for them?

Well damn, what city do you live in Eric? Sounds dangerous..>>. *cough*, Well this isn't advice or anything, but what's this guys myspace? You got me curious to see what he looks like now. =3

I just don't even know what to do anymore. We've only got 2-3 weeks left in school, and things are getting worse for me every day. Yesterday, i almost broke down in my french class and my eyes were all teared up, from the teacher screaming at me because i couldn't remember what to say, and i usually don't let her get to me like that. Today, i just don't know. The guy i like Zach, ignores me now, doesn't talk or even look at me anymore, I don't know why, but it's kind of depressing me, and it's been going on for a few weeks now, I don't want to like him, but when i see him, i get these mixed feelings. I want him to like me, or even notice me sometime, but I don't want to like him, I wanna get over him, I can't get over him.Then Aaron, one of my best friends seems like he's avoiding me in the classes we have togethor, he skipped our art class we have togethor today, and ignores me in gym. My two best friends were basically making fun of me on the bus because i'm not manly enough, they don't know, I don't want to be all feminine like i am, and i try..but i can't. One of them was telling me how she stood up for me when these two ugly guys she has these huge crushes on were making fun of me at lunch, which i don't understand since i only know them very little, and even though i tell myself not to let stuff like that get to me, it did. Devin (one of my best friends), like almost everytime i speak to her she brings up how someone was telling or mentioning to her how i was gay, I ask her who every single time, and she just says someone, or i heard it in the hall. She also told me that i should be more manly, she was pressuring me on the bus, and i wanted to tell her..but i didn't. I wanted to kick her out my seat, but she's one of the few people i can actually call my friend anymore. I've been missing a lot of school lately, so i'm failing a lot of my classes now, and i wanted to come and try to get my grades back up with the few weeks of school left, but..i don't even wanna come anymore. I cried when i got home, I didn't think too much about it all, except when i saw Zach, then when i got home, it all hit me. I can't even handle stuff like this anymore, and i can usually deal with people making fun of me, and being alone all the time, but lately, I find myself worrying all the time. My smiles are all fake, I'm not laughing as much anymore, and when i'm laughing i'm worried about what people are thinking. I've got so much on my mind, I go home and sleep for hours, and when i wake up..i'm just constantly replaying what happened that day in my mind.

I've told one of my close guy friends that i actually liked this guy in one of our classes, and they know each other pretty well. He didn't seem to care at all, but the conversation for a short while after, was uncomfortable for me. However, lately i'm slowly getting over this other guy that i was falling for, and i'm getting this crush on my friend. He knows though, but i didn't tell him, a friend that i told blabbed her mouth to him, and things got umcomfortable yet again for a period. Now, we're really close, I can tell he's trying to talk to me and such, he comes up to me in gym class and tries to talk, but I'm such a b***h in gym, i like ignore everyone. The last couple of days have been good, my feelings for him are getting stronger, and i actually think he's been trying to flirt with me lately, but i'm not completely sure.

I actually changed my mind about posting this situation.

Aw, you have a groupie, how cute. But seriously, i think you need to sit him down and tell him that you two cant be friends if this obessive stuff doesnt quit now.

Thanks Pru Today was another good day actually, we were talking a lot more to each other, and joking around a bit. I was so happy the rest of the day, and excited, knowing i would get to see him in 6th period in Gym class, but when the time came, it was so awkward. We didn't speak at all, and when it was time to leave, i was in the bathroom mirror fixing my hair, i looked up at the doorway in the mirror and i saw him like step in and see i was in there, and turn away, then come up to the mirror beside me. I had a feeling he didnt want me in there, i just wanted to tell him i wasnt gonna bite or anything, but i ended up leaving after a few seconds. Pru, did you ever actually tell the guy that you liked him? Or, he just found out you were gay, and you eventually got over him?

Another Update I told him i liked him, well actually i wrote it on his binder, but he knew it was me somehow. Anway, that was on Friday. The whole weekend i was so nervous seeing him, i wasnt sure if he'd be pissed off or not even look at me anymore. My friend who i first told, told me that the guy told him i wrote it on his binder, and he said he sounded kind angry, like he was gonna hit me if i kept doing it. But today, was great. We actually held up a conversation today, and its been a really long time since we done that, and were making each other smile. I sit accross from him now, so we kept catching each others eyes. I'm so hoping we get closer soon =)

Hm, well ok i guess, you actually made it much more clearer then he did himself pru, but i also quit reading what you had to say after the second paragraph. Some of the things i said were meant to be funny ( ex. the part about being raped in your sleep ), well i laughed at them anyway. >> Keep in mind i am 15, and i don't need everything i said broken down and explained to me. =) I actually got it the first time when Fox said it, i just had some questions, and concerns. I mean one post it was 'he's coming over, what should i do?' or something, then it was ' im not sure if i want him over anymore, maybe i should cancel', then 'okay he's coming over but sleeping in a separate room', and then ' i don't want him coming over'. (those arent accurate, just what i got out of the posts. ) This thread was just some emotional rollercoaster, unlike the previous threads you had about this guy.

How can you say that you don't wanna be in a relationship with someone who isn't open in being gay? When you aren't yourself, is that fair? You've told a few people you barely know, and this guy you at some point 'liked', interesting. What you sound like to me is, " yay i'm open, but shhh don't tell anyone!", it honestly doesn't make any sense. The guy is cleary gay, and i don't think it should make you laugh, because you told people you were straight until you admitted to yourself that you're gay, so you're basically laughing at yourself. Another thing is, since the beginning of the relationship, you wouldn't tell him until a few days ago that you're gay. Now, it's like either he admits to being gay, or you two cant be in a relationship togethor, when just up till that point, you both were basically lieing to each other about your sexuality. Again, it seems unfair to me, or is it just me? By the way it sounds, about the phone conversations is, he's telling you he's a bottem, with the 'ill be the female' or w/e, it's something i do think you do need to know, in case the time does come..and you both arent ruining the mood trying to decide on who get's to be the top and who get's to be the bottem. So..what now?You don't like him anymore because he wants you? Are you scared he's gonna rape you while you're sleeping or something, so he now has to sleep in a different room? You two can cleary hang out without it being sexual, he just wants to spend time with you. I've always started to believe how some of these comments,have changed your opinion about your relationship, whether they were meant to be helpful or not. He's talking about hypothetical relationships on the phone, he's exited to come on, asks about some gay porn, and it's being made out like he's experimenting on you, and using you for his toy. It's made you change the way you see him, and you don't like it.

Off topic for a moment,I was actually surprised to find out that you were a guy. I always thought you were female, but i guess i was right when that previous picture you had was indeed Aaliyah? Anyhow, I started laughing while reading the situation you were in. The whole thing just reminded me of some of my friends. The people im talking about are like huge potheads now btw, but in the beginning of this year during school. I'd come into my class, and like my friends would be talking about how they had skipped some of their classes and went over to like their smoking room. they'd be talking about how they were watching gay porn, and reading porno magazines. Btw the people are all straight..but maybe being stoned has something to do with them watching gay porn of all things. The whole time while i was just listening to these outragous stories, im thinking to myself, 'omg, my friends are porno heads, i need new friends,aah'. It's crazy is all i can say. I don't even know what the fascination with porn is to be honest. I can watch it, but it's not a turn on, i think it's hilarious to watch. Its like some sexual comedy in my opinion. You have these guys with oversized packages, and girls with plastic everything, doing it, and trying to make it believable, with their over exaggerated orgasms, fake moaning, and insane positions. Then they have those ones that look like they're made to make you laugh, with the guys with socks on, big gerry curls, look like someone tried to shoot him 4-5 times, and the girl obese, stretch marks scars all over her, with her nasty tight fitting clothing,fat popping out the sides, shoes too tiny for her feet. I could just go on and on about how crazy porn is, but i wont. =)

Someone's thinking about getting laid =o, joking... I know this is kinda off topic,but can i ask you a question? Have you ever slept with another man before?

Wow, something kinda similar happened to me today. I came out of my room and layed accross the couch while my dad was in the kitchen a few feet away making my dinner. What do you know..60 minutes comes on, and i'm watching the opening segment. Then the part where they're talking about something with a younger brother having a higher chance of being gay or w/e. I get nervous when stuff like that comes on television, i keep thinking my dad is gonna suspect something and start questioning, so i got up off the couch and went back into my room.

I just figured i'd give you all an update on the situation, if any cared. Conversation has been absolutely nothing lately. Occasional glances over at me is all i get, and that could be possibly due to me staring at him. I feel like im in love with him, and he doesn't even notice me anymore, i'm dreaming and thinking about him all the time. I've even told my best guy friend that i liked this guy, i dont even know why, i guess i had to tell someone.All three of us went to elementary school togethor, and he's still really good friends with him, but i think i can trust him.

o.o, maybe that would work..i guess, but i always thought thakid was a guy, and saying that would make him look kinda crazy. Hi always works, or Hello, but you get the point.

Hehe, you have no idea how tempted i am, to touch his a**, or any part of him. Im kind of sad in a way though, I won't be able to see him until Tuesday this week, we don't have school on Monday. I'm also kind of excited..i'm gonna attempt to start a conversation with him, i just hope when the time comes i get don't cowardly and go to my seat..and stare at him like i normally do.

I know some of you are constantly dealing with posts similar to mine, but everyone here seems helpful, so i'm hoping some of you are able to help me out. My name is Roman,I'm 15 and in 9th grade. I've just come to realise i am gay, for sure. I've had girlfriend's all my life, up until 8th grade, i was never really attracted to them, but i liked them in a way if that makes any sense..i liked having them around i guess. I'm not really that quiet, i talk alot, and i'm loud, but i have a few classes that i absolutely don't speak in, no friends in them, and the people pick on me constant and i almost cried today..some guy threw a circle tracer thing at me and hit me in my butt, and also kept throwing it at my head. I'm not openly gay, i haven't told anyone, but i think some people are aware of it, and either don't care, or wanna mention to me they know. I haven't told anyone yet for reasons like how my high school is crazy, i already get picked on for being quiet, i just can't imagine how it'd be if everyone knew. I'm afraid of losing my best friends, and my dad doesn't like gay people, and i live with him alone. My mom is a lesbian that lives over 300 miles away from where i live right now.My mother's side of the family, i think it's kind of weird..the majority of the females are lesbians,my grandmother,both aunts,cousins (i cant imagine my sister being one though). My mom along with her girlfriend of 10 years,raised me along with my sister. I do have a femenine habits, but i'm assuming it's from living with 3 girls in a house, with no male figure. I don't have any openly gay friends, or gay friends at all period that i could talk to. I just know these two gay guys, that aren't open, but very obvious. They're annoying, both extremly loud, feminine, and ignorant, and i absolutely hate being around them, i can't even imagine carrying on a conversation with one of them. Anyway,Getting back to what i'm here for. So, There's a guy in my 1st period science class, and my 6th period gym class, Zach. That i've known since 5th grade, so i've known him for a while. (i moved down to WV from PA in 5th grade, so he's one of the few people that i've known the longest.)Anyway, in 1st period, before class starts, he's always in there hanging out along with two of my other friends, so i always go in too. He just lays down over top of one of the tables,and i go and sit down in my seat 2 tables over from where he lays at. The whole time, i'll talk to my friends some, and constantly look over at him, i cant help it, but he looks back at me..and i look down..and do it over,and sometimes he's looking at me..and we do this for like 20 minutes until class starts, and i'm just thinking to myself omg i want you/take me on the table nooow.I've also tried to see if his pupils were dilated, like some of you said before in how someone looks at you, and my eyes are kinda bad and i really cannot see his eyes good enough to tell. We do talk a little bit, but i haven't really carried on a conversation with him in a while, i guess i don't know how to approach him and just start a conversation..i kinda just go with the flow. He'll smile at me sometimes, and his smile makes me smile, so i smile back. He's so sweet and nice to me, but i don't want to take advantage of our friendship and try to build on something that's not even there. He's touched my as* before in gym class, and was smiling at me, but i wasn't quite sure if he was playing with me..so i just played it off like i didn't care and look at him ( the tease *.*). My gym class was playing volleyball once (that i suck at), and i fell down on accident somehow,i think i tripped over my own shoe..not sure,anyhow everyone was laughing at me,except him..and i didn't think it was very funny how i hurt myself when i fell..whatever. He was the only one who even cared and was concerned about me, asked if i was ok and stuff. In a way, I actually kind of believe he is bi or gay in the way he acts, i've watch his movements a lot, since i stare at him a lot heh. I do have a concern with the time i have to see him..it's only like 2 hours out of a day, and this semester is almost halfway done, and i won't be able to see him during the summer since i go and stay down at my mom's. I'm just wondering..how i could maybe give him a hint that i'm interested in him, or test him maybe to see if he's interested in me, without making it obvious? Edit : I edited it a bit, and added some stuff to it, maybe it's more clearer and easier to understand now.