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hmm, well if you have the guts, just be honest with him and tell him your feelings that you have about him. I know it's not as easy as it sounds.. You could first tell him "if I tell you this would you promise not to think differently of me.." w/e, etc..

Well, if you are looking to be normal weight yeah you might want to lose that extra 15 pounds. I don't think you are "too skinny" yet, by the calculations on the body mass index calculator.. but yeah, working out might help. [if you are looking to improve your image]

ah I should have said I don't know if he finds me attractive or not but yeah I will try to setup a place to go. A movie would be great, however I don't want to make him drive an hour just to get to my area, because my parents will think "why would you want to go down there when theres a movie theater 15 minutes away?" & lol, my parents assume all my male friends are gay because I barely have any guy friends, just a bunch of girl friends. oh yeah and about the foot thing, he started laughing and he lyed down on the bench with his feet sticking out so I pretended to have sex with his foot and I made a weird sound, haha.

Alright so I'm pretty excited but at the same time I feel really..I think self conscious about myself. Let me explain with the whole story, lol. I had talked to this guy on myspace on and off twice since July last year. He messaged me and said "hey there, your cute," and I was like thanks and just taking it as though it was another one of those random compliments like I usually got. I took a quick look through his pictures, and I was like he's pretty cute. After a while I didn't talk to him until he IM'ed me and we talked, and then I fell in love with him over the next couple days. We talked on the phone twice (25 minutes total..... haha) and all he really talked about was his recent breakup with his boyfriend (a 9 month relationship) because his boyfriend moved to texas as well as him doing drugs and cheating on him with other guys. I went along with the conversation and after a while I had realized we talked a lot about his ex. That got me thinking that that was a bad thing so I became paranoid of it. We stopped talking for 2 weeks..5weeks, until it became about 6 months since we last talked to eachother and I completely forgot about him. So he commented one of my pictures the beginning of february and I was really flattered with them. He IM'ed me again and he told me that I should meet him at a lasertag place for his friends birthday party. So I got excited and it was finally the day to go, but unfortunately I forgot to tell my parents on time and I couldn't go last friday and the weather was pretty bad. I cryed that night and I was upset but his text message cheered me up and he said "we'll find another way to meet" so we didn't have school yesterday because of Presidents day, and we planned to meet up at the mall. I planned it to be at 3:00pm but because of my STUPID flute lessons (heh..) I had to quickly get a hold of everyone to move the time back to go at 2:00. I was really scared that something would go wrong but it didn't. I drove up with my friends [and mom.. I only have my learners *sigh* but I get my license in may] and we walked around and looked at the clothes, shared a large fry and large coke and mcdonalds..it wasn't as fun as I thought it would be. So I texted him and told him if he had gotten to the mall yet because I had to leave really soon. He said yeah and I exited the store and I saw him and I ran over because I was so excited lol. We said hey, and introduced our friends...ugh. His friends actually talked to me, while I told him who my friends were and they weren't really paying attention when I told him. He was so cute, better in person. While he was being all gay with his friends (lmao) my two other friends were playing with my phone, while I was talking to my other one asking her "what should I do?" and then I just did something weird and raped his foot. (don't ask..unless you want, lmao.) so he and his friends laughed and I was all conscious and I was like "whew I did something.." and then his friend said that we have to go wait for someone outside and I went with them for a bit and then I decided to go back with my friends. (on the way I saw my mom but she didn't see me, thank god. my parents cannot know I'm trying to get a boyfriend) So then I wanted to find him again but I didn't because my mom called and we had to go and so I just texted him that it was too late to find me because im driving and then I said "aww your cute" He said thanks and you too and again, he said we'll find another time to meet again. That text has been making me think as well as questioning my attractiveness, am I really cute? I mean I've been told by many people but whenever I look in the mirror, somedays I think I'm really cute but then there are days where I'm like ugh I'm not attractive.. I don't know. I always look at my flaws that no one ever sees and I just continuously beat down my self esteem.. The other thing is I don't know where is a good place to go to meet up with him again. This time I want to go alone but the problem is my parents can't be there..

I had a mole removed from my head a couple weeks ago. First they inject the anesthesia (whatever, that numbing thing) and then they take a razor blade and take it out. It does hurt a little bit but it is FAST. They just take it right out. It will hurt for like 5 minutes and then you'll get over it. Insurance pays a bit for it, but you will have to pay as well..I don't know much about it.. My doctor only removes 1 mole per visit, that pisses me off..

Eh, well I'm not really ready for sex anytime soon, or so I think. He does have a girlfriend, yeah, and I think he likes me lol I just know it. I haven't tried to make any relationship though, just friendship.

Well I'll give you the story.. I was hanging out with on of my girl friends in town and she told me if it would be okay to bring this one guy, and we met up with him, went down the the park, and just hung out around the bars. We ended up talking about relationships, and I mentioned that I've never made out with anyone before. The guy was surprised that I've never made out with a guy and my girl friend and him were whispering around and then she told me that he thought I was hot and he was bi..lol. (I can never have a straight guy friend, can I...) Well we walked down by one of the picnic rooms, and we just fooled around, sat on each other, put our butts in each other face and slapped them, etc, like 'kinky' stuff, lol and it was fun. Then the subject of me never making out came up and my girl friend said you should totally do it, it'd be hot! So he walked over and sat next to me and I hugged him and he put his arm around me and I scooted over a bit and kissed him. I have never kissed a guy before and it was very odd feeling, like it didn't exactly look as it does like seeing a couple kiss. Well I was planning on kissing him to show my friend who so has wanted to see guys kiss..but I want to try to take that chance to see if I can improve and know what to do before I do it again. (I think he likes me too, even though he has a girlfriend..lol.) So do you know how you would describe a way to makeout? The one time I kissed him my lips were like covered in his saliva..almost dripping..haha. I don't know if that's normal or not, so that's why I came here for tips..

Recently, on myspace, my friend added me and then IM'ed me on AIM. It turns out, he wasn't a good friend afterall. My Ex Friend: ewwww,ur gay! SpammedErik: mmhmm. My Ex Friend: nasty SpammedErik: its not like Im perverted SpammedErik: whats nasty about being gay? My Ex Friend: its sick SpammedErik: how is it? My Ex Friend: its wrong SpammedErik: how is it wrong? My Ex Friend: its a sin SpammedErik: why would god make me if I was gay? SpammedErik: being gay isnt a choice, sin is a choice My Ex Friend: gay is a sin SpammedErik: how do you know? SpammedErik: just saying it's a sin is being ignorant My Ex Friend: the bible says that men shall lie down with women SpammedErik: theres a lot of debates about it My Ex Friend: who did u like in middle school? Tim C? Me? Kyle? SpammedErik: I didnt like anyone SpammedErik: I hated everyone there SpammedErik: the only girls I could like were the ones I wanted to be friends with My Ex Friend: so u did rape that boy in 5th grade? SpammedErik: lol, omg. SpammedErik: you think I raped someone? My Ex Friend: thats wut every1 says SpammedErik: no, that wasnt true. SpammedErik: oh please, one person said it and everyone believed it My Ex Friend: i made a mistake in making a friend out of u, i stood up 4 u and i ruined my reputation trying to defend a coward who couldnt admit something SpammedErik: I went under the concert stage with the other guy, just being mischievious SpammedErik: you stood up for me? SpammedErik: you laughed at me My Ex Friend: BULL * * * *! SpammedErik: just because I'm gay doesn't mean Im a bad person My Ex Friend: ur a coward! SpammedErik: dude, if you were gay, you would be shy SpammedErik: you think I liked being picked on? My Ex Friend: im not SpammedErik: well duh, Im saying if you were My Ex Friend: i wouldnt be SpammedErik: everyone picked on me and I didnt want to talk to anyone SpammedErik: yeah, because your obnoxious SpammedErik: I dont know if you've changed or not SpammedErik: but you were annoying. SpammedErik: I have to hide it first of all, because if people knew it was actually true, I would have committed suicide a long time ago. SpammedErik: I was almost suicidal in 7th grade SpammedErik: no one liked me because I was gay. I was just born that way, if I could be straight, I would be but that's not possible My Ex Friend: i just think u want attention SpammedErik: yeah right. SpammedErik: you think I'm pretending to be gay so everyone picks on me? My Ex Friend: maybe SpammedErik: lol My Ex Friend: u lied to me My Ex Friend: i was ur friend until u became a rat SpammedErik: would you go out and tell people your gay? My Ex Friend: if i was SpammedErik: I'm out in my school, because I'm ready SpammedErik: I wasnt ready to tell people in elementary/middle school SpammedErik: I WAS NOT out then My Ex Friend: u told ur dad bull * * * * and he told Sister Mary Catherine and i got in trouble just cuz gayboy had issues SpammedErik: you weren't part of it My Ex Friend: howcome i took blame? SpammedErik: sister only talked to you because you were there when it happened My Ex Friend: * * * * * *!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SpammedErik: I know I am SpammedErik: and Im happy about it SpammedErik: but if you dont want to accept me for who I am, * * * * you, because you aren't worthy of being in my life SpammedErik: homophobe scum.

I didn't mean for it to sound like I meant all shy guys are gay. No, I know that.. I meant that in a sort of 'increases the chances of' thing. He definitly does need a friend, I can totally agree, but I don't want to make him feel nervous if I talk to him whenever, because when I used to be terribly shy, I was almost talking from my throat. I'll try going after friendship then, too. And I probably will put a note in one his bag, cause I don't think anyone else would have done so. =P

I understand that and I have thought about this before! You know all the "two girls are hot" stuff that goes on with straight guys. The majority of straight guys think it's gross that two guys are together, obviously. People think gay guys are funny or 'sick' because of the way they act/and don't like how they act. (Some men even think that gay people are a disgrace to manhood) [i am surprised that I haven't heard anything like this on these forums.] Sorry if this is offensive in some way, but it's how most of the world is, or so I think. For girls, you always see how pokey they are with each other. They can hug without someone calling them a lesbian or something like that. Then there would be two good guy friends hugging. That just "looks" wrong (two guys hugging) in many peoples views. Hope I don't sound ignorant in the way I put it. =S

How about asking him about Brokeback Mountain, or if he's seen it =o If he doesn't know it and he says, "Nope. What is it about?" and you could just say it's a romance between two cowboys, etc..

Hey, I'm back with a new thread =P There's this guy who was in my homeroom, and now since the new semester is here and the classes have changed, he is now in my 4th class. He's very quiet and his face is so beautiful. He has blonde highlights on the top of his brown hair, and a 'big diamond stud' sort of earring on his left ear. He doesn't talk to anyone in the class unless we have to do some kind of partner project. In my homeroom class, he doesn't talk to anyone either. He only talked to this one girl only because she started talking to him, and she tries to talk to him. Do you think he could be gay? Usually it's the quiet ones that are gay or a lesbian, like my lesbian friend is or how I was in the beginning of the year until my friends made me really hyper and outgoing. This guy is literally shy because he didnt look at anyone during his presentation today, he had his head down. I'm really starting to like him and I'm interested, but I couldn't just walk up to him and say hi. Oh, I just remembered too. We have these paper bags that we hang up on the wall, and we put notes in them to compliment on something about their project or something like that. (Psh..I always find out the first step whenever I write out my problem on this site, lol.) Well, it would be awkward to talk to him. If I wrote a note and he didn't say anything back, then what would I do after that though?.. and what would I write in it?

I don't really worry, but sometimes I think about it. But I'm just a 14 year old right now, so I wouldn't expect anything bad happening right now. I sometimes feel paranoid of the thought that one day someone is going to just bomb some gay bar or something like that.

The reason people do not come out is because it can affect their lives, obviously. Your parents or friends could reject you and it can affect what job you get if your boss would be a homophobic. My dad tells me that he hears all kinds of gossip around at work, and people will talk about you behind your back. I remember when I was like in 4th grade, I said to myself, "Grr..why do I have to be gay? Why can't I just like girls like a regular guy?". I wanted to be straight, but now I am very happy to be gay because it's just awesome in my opinion. 1. I came out because I have like 14 girl friends, more in the making. I tend to do a gay thing once in a while, so the girls ask me if I'm gay and then I hesitate for a couple seconds and then I just tell them because I'm comfortable. Then some other guys found out and they like to tease me, but I actually am starting to find the attention fun. 2. I do think that people can be confused, but only for those who had never thought about who they liked until puberty/high school, or until they actually took the time to investigate themselves after being scared to find out for many years.

That's a good tip. If people do bother me, then I can get my guidance counselor to deal with them =) Never thought of that. Recently, I got new classes and a guy who found out was in one of them and he told his friends about it, so they were smiling and staring at me with widened eyes and they were freaking me out like seriously. (One of the guys I have a crush on, lol.) The next day, one of them blew a kiss at me and I blushed. But I'm just going to keep being nice to them, and just smile.