hello
Long Distance relationships hardly ever work. There is a lot of trust involved and even though you may think nothing will happen, there are many factors that can change that in a heartbeat.
By reading your post, you see hesitant. It seems like something more than distance is holding you back. Are you currently in a relationship? If so, have you talked to your significant other about it? After all, he has a right to know if you are going to leave for someone 13 hours away. If you are in a relationship, you might as well end it. Your feelings for the "other" guy is only going to complicate things and cause a lot of hurt feelings. It boils down to a trust thing. The way you talk to "J" and expressed feelings, it does a very great diservice to the one you may currently be with.
Why am I saying this? I've been down this road before. I had a child with the person who hurt me. Her sex drive controlled her and when the sex was no longer good enough for her, she started looking elsewhere while using me to keep her clothed, sheltered and providing the internet access she used for the hunting while I was not home or asleep.
