Hello everyone,
I want advice on how to deal with failure, I am 26 years old and I feel that I didn't accomplish anything.
My colleagues from university traveled so many times, got married, or got a high paying job.
When I graduated, I applied to many companies but didn't get accepted although I have good grades, did internships and published research articles. At that time, I was confident and I always tried to be better. But afterwards, I couldn't get a job. Then there was COVID, when it was 2021 I discovered that my friends and colleagues were able to succeed and somehow I failed to do so.
When I got a job, I couldn't fit in. They treated me like an outsider. I tried many times to talk with them and make conversation, especially with the female coworkers but they ignored me. The place where i sit, they always close the lights and sleep on the floor or smoke. I told them that I needed the lights to work many times but they were like just open the window. After a year, I complained to my supervisor and told him what they were doing but he didn't believe me and told me to go sit somewhere else if I don't like it. When I sat somewhere far from them, the people around me stopped talking to me since I fought with her. I feel like I am in highschool again. I didn't mean to fight with her but working without lights really annoyed me.
It frustrates me being paid the minimum wage and not having friends at work. My birthday is coming up and knowing that I would have no one to spend it with makes me even sadder. It's summer vacation and everyone is traveling.
Everytime i think about it, I get angry with myself for not being successful or cool enough to have friends. I hope that you guys won't make fun of me for complaining about my life, I just feel too ashamed to talk to someone in person about it.