babyblueeyes56

Yah thats true, and I don't want to be the main focus in the relationship, i want it to be about both of us, not just me. I just don't want to lose him.

He doesn't know how I feel, I know there is a big differnce in ages, but what if he is my soul mate and I never told him how I felt?

He is going to be 15 and I will 18

We spent a couple weeks together. And that time was the most amazing time have in my life. I know it was short but it meant something to me and he said the same thing.

I met this guy back in May, when he was ur for a church event., And we hit it off right off. I kind back down a little b/c I was scared b/c I was never in a serious realationship before and he was three years younger then me. Will he went back to Texas, and we talked for a couple weeks Im back and forth. Will we both got really busy. And didn't talk for a couple months. We just started talking again and I know deep in my heart I love him, and he is the right one. But he seems to be pushing me away now. Do you think that I am crazy for thinking he is the right one. Right now my heart is acheing so much to be with him. I mean he held me like other person had before and he made me feel like someone cared. Know I am confused. How do you know when you found ur soul mate, or do you ever know. I just know I can't take a breath without thinking of him, I spend my nights wake in the dark picturing him. I even had dreams about him. I just need advice, I just know if I could leave him.

I don't get how ppl can say things can get better, b/c they haven't yet, they have been like this for years, so tell me how things get better, if my whole life has sucked, have been painful

I feel the same way all the time. I can't concetrate on thing. But I never thought it was ADD. I always tried staying from that idea, I thought it had to with other stuff. I am the same with prayer, I can't keep praying b/c I lose thought, or I can't come up with the words to say

I rather not discuss with ppl I don't know

Hey thanks for all of the replys. I will try to find something in life to make me happy. I just wish there was a way I could get over this depression.

almost over a year, I have been majorily depressed, I have attempted suicide many times before. Then I thought I was doing so much better feeling great, but then again things happened in my life that I wonder if there is any good in this world. I keep trying to force myself to be happy and forget about everything, but I just can't. Everyday I hardly to get out of bed in fear of what the day will be like. I don't want to take my life though, but I don't want to live the way I do.

hey, i know how u feel, my grandma is the hospital right now, not doing so well, she has had many strokes, and is having heart promblems, she may not make it. I don't know how I would deal with it if I lost her, i have never lost someone before.