A year ago, before I met this girl I am crazy in love with, Abby, my life was so depressing, I wanted to commit suicide and I hated my life, I didn't think there was a reason for living at this point in my life.
Then I sat next to a beautiful girl in one of my classes, there was just something about her, I wanted to get to know her, she intrigued me. I made sure I ran into her between classes and that I could talk to her and learn the little things about her, we hung out a few times at the movies and stuff and I was falling for her...my life, my world was getting brighter...soon we spent lots of time together, I told her some things I couldn't tell anyone else and she was amazing.
I decided I had to take things a step forward, I was in love with this girl, I told her one day, we were at The Coffee Bean and I told her she was beautiful in every way and that she was the most amazing girl I've ever met and then I told her I loved her. She has this shocked face, one of those faces where she didn't know what to say, she asked me if it was an I love you in a friend way or more than friends way and I told her I wanted to be with her and see where this could take us, and she gave me the "I see you as a friend."
I didn't think it would hurt so much, everytime I hang out with her I can't help but stare, she just acts like I never told her. I respect how she feels, but I'm seriously heart broken right now, I cry myself to sleep thinking she's the greatest thing to come along and she was my reason for living and she sees me as a friend.
I'm confused and I don't know what I'm feeling, I don't know what to do. Advice needed.
