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Yeah, we've talked about it. She knows how I feel, and yes it is mutual. But like I mentioned, she doesn't feel she's ready right now, trying to get herself back in her feet. And I respect that. And my position is really that, I honestly had no interest in trying to date anyone at all at the time I met her. I was just, drawn to her and I let my guard down. Neither one of us really know if that'll come to fruition. But who knows. And yeah we talked about the whole, bringing someone home thing. We both decided we wouldn't, her or myself, while she is living here, out of respect for one anothers feelings.

Yes she is.

So, to be clear here. When she stayed the night with me, in my room, that was before she asked if she could move in, that happened twice. She moved back from out of state 9 months ago, to live with her father, but in his line of work, he is hardly home. So, not really living with, but she would stay with her (girl) friend near her dad's house most nights. I tried my best to describe everything without getting into the nitty gritty. lol But yeah. I honestly don't really know what I'm looking for here. I'm not hurting, or in pain. We've been friends for a while now. It's only been a few days since she moved in. But yeah, even before that, I mean we spent pretty much all of our free time together. To the extent that we'd go grocery shopping together. Which is funny, because I normally hate it when anyone goes to the grocery store with me.

Also I'll point out, I've known her now for 5 months. She is 9 months out of that relationship. My divorce was finalized 2 months ago. She was previously out of state, and moved back, and was staying with her father when she got back. But, again. An hour away from the area in which she works.

So l, as far as moving in, she asked only a few days ago, because I have 4 extra bedrooms. She works in my area, but was living with a friend an hour away. So she asked more out of convenience. I accepted, for one because I enjoy spending time with her. Plus, I figured that'd be easier on her, she works long hours and is kind of all over town throughout the day. So saving 2h/day is a win. I had offered her dinner anytime she wants anyway because I absolutely cannot cook for one. lol On the abusive ex topic, he is far away, a non issue. As far as the cuddling thing, I mean yeah. That happened a couple times. The first night she stayed here, she stayed in the guest room, then a couple nights with me, finishing up the last season of stranger things. Aso, my ex and I are now divorced at this point. I don't really know what I was looking for here. Because I know I love the friendship I have with this person, and if something comes of it, that'd be amazing. But otherwise I'm fine.

So. I'm 8 months separated from my wife. We're both amicable, and we would be divorced already except, I told her we can wait on that until she can get on her own health insurance. That relationship is over, but we're still friends. I'm okay with that, it took me a while to get there, but I am. Anyhow, I wasn't really looking to date yet, but one day, I met this girl I clicked with right away... It was kind of adorable because, well... I met her at my friends bar, I happened to be really intoxicated at the time, and felt like I made a fool of myself. She had given me her number and asked me to text her in the morning. I woke up in the morning, wanted to text her, but I was embarrassed. I thought I made a complete ass of myself to her, all day I thought about it. At 10pm she texted me and said, "you were supposed to text me, I hope you're not embarrassed from last night, you really made me feel good about myself". To which I promptly replied. "Nailed it!". Anyway. We talked for a few days over text, met up one day, and things happened. I had been up front with her about the situation with my ex from the get go. Anyhow, things start turning toward a relationship, and then she backed off. Said she wasn't comfortable with my situation, plus she's not ready for anything serious because she's also somewhat recently out of an abusive relationship. I told her I respect that, but I hope we can still talk, because I really enjoy talking to her. She says not a good idea, so that we don't continue to become attached at this point. I said I understand, and respected her wishes. Four days later she texts me and wants to be friends. Again, stresses the not ready for anything seriously. I told her absolutely, that'd mean a lot to me. We talk, all day every day since then. She's become one of my closest friends to me. She would come over sometimes and spend the night, we'd cuddle in my bed, but nothing beyond that. I've fallen head over heels for this girl, but I don't want to ruin the friendship we have. She knows how I feel to an extent. Again, because I don't want to push her away. Anyhow. I let her move in to my guest room recently. And we're fine, everything is great. But I guess my question here is. Where do I go from here? I really want something more with this girl, but again. I'm faced with this dilemma of if I try to pursue that, I risk pushing her away. I know the best relationships come from friendship. But, where is the line in the sand. Where do you decide, is it worth potentially losing a friend because you want something more. If it's mutual, then great! If it's not, maybe she'll run from me. Which is the absolute last thing I want. She's someone I completely adore, I care about her deeply, and she's one of very few people I feel comfortable opening up to.