I (f19) have been with a guy named Dean (m19) for a few months. He’s super down to earth, funny, and sweet- he’s gone out of his way for me way too many times. Hes a bit shy, but has a lot of friends from our university because of his easygoing attitude.
Every time we’re together Deans friends start messing with him and laughing, like they’ve never seen him with a girl before. And when my friends saw him, they kept joking around saying he wasn’t that attractive. He’s not ugly by any means. if we’re talking about looks, he’s slightly above average. but personallity- he’s a 10/10.
Ive definitely grown into my looks the past few years and get more attention from guys because of this. I say this because i now get hit on almost every time I go out. I feel like there’s this expectation for me to date a certain type of guy because my friends never seem to think the guys I like are cute enough, unless they’re super physically attractive (who I prefer not to date because of past experiences).
Even though I know I am objectively pretty(from people telling me), I am still very insecure about myself inside. I tend to put everyone around me on a pedestal, and I care too much about what other people think. I don’t know if I’ll ever feel like a “pretty girl” because i feel like I can’t get out of old thought pattern I had when I hated the way I looked.
when other people start joking about Dean it makes me want to stop talking to him. And I feel horrible for thinking that way. I was never a superficial person, so I don’t know what’s wrong with me right now. My chest hurts every time I hear someone say something negative, even though most of the time it’s light hearted and I’m sure they don’t mean any harm.
