I have been married for 11 years with 3 lovely kids but 2 years ago I walked away from it all because I could not longer live with the unhappiness from an emotional & physical abusive marriage.
Not long into our marriage I started to experience how unsupportive she was particularly with finance: I had to do almost everything alone, pay all our bills and investing in our future all alone, the burden was so much on me and i became unhappy. My wife being a Narcissist, I lost interest in the relationship but I kept on with all the responsibilities because of the children. I generally do not like arguments.
I started cheating on her to make myself happy and on each case she discovered the affairs, she became worse and my life became more miserable. She had attacked me a couple of time and inflicted injury.
Fast Forward to two years ago, I felt like I was going to die in the marriage; my blood pressure high, I lost self-confidence and self-esteem and lived with a wife who constantly disrespect/abuse me in front of my kids, so I left.
After almost a year of living apart (although I go to see my kids and attend to their needs,) I relocated to the UK for a Masters education. Each time I speak to her over the phone, my BP rises as it ALWAYS ends in arguments. She has denied me access to speaking to my children.
At this point, I am considering a divorce so I can move on with my life but I fear losing my children as I know she is very capable of instigating them against me.
Please any advice and insight will be helpful.
Thank you
