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I'm on it right now, thank you so much.

Hello, you are right I need to look for help now that I became a citizen few months ago I think I can , but before I was a legal resident and never done anything like this , so when you say social services do you social security office ?.or there is others office I need to look for ?.thank you

Thats how I think of it , I don't want to pay but I owe half of this bills since I live here , and I m just letting him his thing and whatever he wants, I m focusing on the new job I m starting tomorrow and maybe looking for a part time second job to avoid been around him a lot and save money, I been drawing and coloring as a hobbies since it bad weather and I can't go out , I like this hobby and it makes me happy and less focused on this relation issue , but I am very aware is done and I really don't want it anymore , I m just like an extra piece of furniture in his house and I need a considerate caring boyfriend not this selfish guy, he told me last night he bought a the big new TV and it arrives today and to get it since I will be home, he didn't even say he ordered it , and now on top of the house been a bar nor also a sports bar because his brothers and coworkers will be coming to watch sports game here , that's why he got a bigger nicer TV without any consideration that the apt is very very small and I can't focus on reading or any other hobby or be comfortable with the TV so loud in a language I don't understand , but the more reason to get another job and get the hell out of here .

I went to donate plasma is extra money's nd I pick up shifts in temp apps and I talk to the manager again to speed up the hiring process so I can start working , and I m thinking I may have to get an extra part time job at nights to save faster. I came back home and he was here, working on his laptop , he doesn't talk to me and I don't talk to him either, it so very uncomfortable to be here , the apt is so small and there is no where to go I want to go out like I did yesterday but it raining hard outside and I can't . I'm not sure how do I suppose to live with him or how until I have enough to move out ? Last time I talked to him as he said he will work.on this relation , not even a week ago and now things are much worst and I don't think i wat any to talk to him again, and it s clear he doesn't want and he is not going to change so what the point? But how can I live with him.im this all apt and his 2 brothers next door until I have enough to move, I feel so uncomfortable even that I pay my parts of the bills .

We just got into the biggest argument as soon as we wake up literally, he lend me a tablet few weeks ago I needed it to do some work things on it and he said don't buy new one just use this one, he got it free when he got his new iphone and it was just setting there. I been using it and it and my Gmail and all my infos and password and bank account on it, as soon as we wake up he said his brother need is immediately, right now and I need to give it back this moment , I told him I can't I have all my things on it and my infos as he said he never give it to me, and things got worst from there and I brought up his night out last night until 2am, and out of anger I told him to don't use my things either and that what his adult brother needs isn't my problem, and how much of hypocrite liar untrustworthy he is. Omg I just need to leave asap and I don't know how to do it without money, I text the manager asking when I can start working , but it will take time before even I get the first check and that's just training check and it only pays minimum wage for the 10days of training, I m getting anxiety with all this .the cheapest studio around town start at 1300$/ month just for the rent , plus deposit and last month of rent and the moving fees .what should I do?.please advise me.

Yes ,it hurts deep down,I feel like failure, I am 31 years old and still can't find someone that wants to be with me and love me for who I am, and sometime if not most of the times I feel like I m never going to find that person,I really had high hopes for this relation, week we win distance everything seemed perfect and working well . but everyone here is right, we are just not compatible . And I need to save money and leave asap . Since he told me I can go out and do what I want alone , I did exactly that, I went to the park and than got a small dinner out alone, when I came back home he wasn't at home, he went out alone too ( his 2 brothers were outside the entire time) and his car is gone too, I don't know where did he go. and I m not going to ask and he still didn't come back home yet , I don't know if he went out with friends or other girls as at this point I don't trust him 100%anymore, I wouldn't be surprised if he use this as an excuse to always go out alone and stay late like today and meet other girls . feel depressed and kinda of sad too, I don't know where did I go wrong.

Well I just went t out for like am hour by myself to get some staff I need and came back and again his 2 brothers and him setting outside my balcony drinking , I m just loosing it. I m being ignored again while he is playing basketball outside and drinking as of he is dating his brothers and coworkers and not me . I just want to get the hell out of here buti m about to start a new job this week and I don't have money to just leave immediately in this expensive city .

I had a conversation with him few days ago, the same and he said he doesn't want to break up and he wants to work on things and he is sorry and no more hanging out with his brother and coworkers until late at night, and 2 days later back to the same shi**, first just na hour or so and than start again, I went to bed last night at midnight and he was still at the balcony drinking with his brothers and didn't come in until like 2:30 or 3 am , and this morning at the breakfast table on the phone with his mother on speaker the entire time and we got into an argument, I told him you don't have any table manners, I just made nice breakfast just so you can be in the phone the entire time on speakers in languages I don't understand , and now he went out and left me alone in the house and is our day off when we suppose to go out and do something but nothing , he first said his 2 brothers want to go to the park together if I want to go to but now he left alone after the argument , I told him you don't spend any quality time with me and he said he feels he is with me the entire time at home , what is not what I asked , he is with me when eating and sleeping or watching TV but no really quality time , no deep really conversation or do new experiences or anything and he told me if you want to go out and do your things alone you can, and I told him than why am I even dating you? I can do my own things alone but we use to go out together at least I once a week and now 3 months in this relation and look at it, I m new to the city I don't have any friends yet and I do go out alone sometimes to explore but not all the time and when I was single and when we were long distance I use to always do solo travel around the country but I thought living together he will want to do things together and get to know each other better . I m just so frustrated ,I don't know if he doesn't know how relation works or what quality time or he just doesn't care or what the hell is wrong with him? He says he loves me and doesn't want to break up .

Yes it's true. I never know where things are. But for some reason I feel like I'm having anxiety right now. I had horrible few days. Getting over covid, having to go around town everyday looking for work send doing interviews . And coming home to this. I don't even know how to start this conversation .

Than what are you suggesting ?

But I feel like everytime he gives me the silent treatment . I fix things with him and I accept his" sorry" and make things easy on him and he goes back right to it. And I feel like he does this because he knows I will take him but this I don't want to make easy on him. Or take him back just for saying " sorry and I love you crap " . He treats me like a doormat because of that. I want to show him that of he wants a silent treatment he will get one. I wouldn't take to him or cook for him or clean after him or laugh with him. Nothing..

What should I tell him? He knows what he did wrong, her knows cooking home drunk at 7 am and leaving her cans all over the balcony isn't right but he isn't trying to talk about it or apologizing . So tell me please what should I tell him. ?

I didn't take talk to him yet about it, we haven't been taking to each other in 3 days. He hit mad about nothing 3 days ago after i made him dinner and dessert and waited for him to her home from work and eat together , and he says he didn't want to talk to me so I told him okay let's not talk. He tried to talk to me earlier adding me if I eat and I told him to leave me alone. So I don't know if in should ask him to set down and talk or I should just keep ignoring him. Anyways he didn't ty to talk about his behavior at all or even apologize . I'm not sure we are as far as the relation . What did he think. For him or it's over and no I'm not sure.

You right it's gonna be like that. What do you think I should do in the mean time while looking for work and a place to move to? I still have to be here for free week at least?

I feel like you getting me and really understand me. You put what I feel into words I can't put . It's exactly what bothering me and how I feel. We just moved together instead of spending time together to know each other and do activities I get left alone while taking to other people in languages I don't understand . It's driving me crazy and makes me depressed .