PigeonBrioche

We are both on the lease but are thousands in rent arrears for obvious reasons. Where we live I can't get out of the lease without the entire tenancy ending and again, as much as I hate him I don't want to leave him homeless. I don't have the finances to find somewhere new to rent by myself as I've accumulated so much debt in the last few years from just trying to survive, pay necessary bills etc. The day I get my paycheck is the same day i end up in the minus. Renting somewhere new requires a deposit, first months rent up front, moving costs etc which I simply don't have.

Heya everyone, randomly come across this site and looking for some advice! First off I'm not actually with this man, physically or emotionally, we haven't shared a good moment together in years. We started dating in 2013, and things were OK to begin with but I had (still do) very low self esteem and tbh I was desperate for a boyfriend at that time. He moved himself in almost straight away. After about a year of us dating, he got fired from his job. And he hasn't had one since. I've begged him over the years to get even something part time so that it would take the financial pressure off of me but he always comes up with excuses for why he won't or can't get a job. We haven't been intimate in about 5 years, we don't share a bedroom and hardly ever interact at this point. I don't think I ever loved him and at this point, I actually despise him. Here's the problem - we don't have kids. We don't own the house we live in (rented). We aren't married. There aren't any commitments keeping me here. All my possessions are in my bedroom, all boxed up and ready to go. They have been for about 2 years. I have a place to stay (my sister). So why can't I leave?? He's very emotionally manipulate which I'm very aware about. And I'm suffering with depression. I have this overwhelming feeling that if I left and he did something drastic to himself, I'd feel guilty for the rest of my life. I know it wouldn't be my fault but I also know myself, I know I would feel guilty. Has anyone ever been in a similar situation, or can anyone give advice on what I can do to actually leave? Thanks in advance.