(tw: mentions of divorce/suicidal thoughts/attempted suicide/diet)
My mental health has been bad ever since 7th grade, I would brush it off but now it is really affecting me. Everyday it worsens. I would be get help for it but I don't want to seem selfish since my parents are going through a divorce and I don't want them to drop everything and have all of their focus on me. I have developed suicidal thoughts recently and about 2 weeks ago I tried to kill myself through asphyxiation, I bailed out of fear. I don't want to die but at the same time I do. I some times feel like my family and some friends would benefit through that which I know is a big lie. I haven't eaten a lot because of stress of school and other things going on at home. I feel more weaker as the days pass. I have no one to really go to because my friends are either busy, grounded, or have stopped talking to me. Any advice on what I should do? I'm desperate at this point.