I'm in a long distance relationship for about 6 months now. It was someone from my past that I reconnected with over the summer. We started seeing each other in July and spent a lot of time together for a few weeks until he had to go to college in another state. In September I began overthinking long distance and broke up with him. He wanted to stay together and after a few weeks I realized that I would rather be long distance and still have him than not have him at all. We got back together in October.
Throughout the past few months he flew over to visit a few times (for a few days each) and each time has been amazing. I was looking forward to winter break which started a month ago. He told me that being together for a whole month would reassure me that all of the distance was worth it once we were finally happy and together again. Since winter break started I haven't felt this way though. I have felt as though we haven't spent much time together and his excitement towards me has died down.
I feel like he's fallen out of the "honeymoon stage" and I haven't which makes me sad. I am still always wanting to talk to him, see him as much as possible and do anything for him. I feel like he doesn't feel the same though. I feel like i'm constantly waiting around for whenever he decides that he's in the mood to talk to me, hang out with me, etc. I know that part of my feelings have to be me overthinking because he has a lot going on. A close family member of his is sick and in the hospital, and he has many other people (including his family) to see over break other than me. I still can't help but feel unwanted though. I communicated this once and he reassured me that he still had the same feelings for me that he has had since the start and that he's just been busy and has had a lot going on. I felt better for a few days but now i'm getting upset again and it is eating away at me. Since i've been feeling rejected by him, I know that I've been giving off a sad energy to him and I've been moody over little things.
I don't want him to grow to hate me for being sad, moody, and naggy but I feel awkward expressing my feelings to him because I feel like he brushes them off. I think that he is very comfortable in the relationship and he knows that I am obsessed with him so he has no reason to worry, but my insecurities are getting the best of me. I think he has gotten too comfortable to the point where he doesn't feel like he needs to try as much anymore. He has never brought up any kind of problem to me, and I know that he doesn't think as deeply into things as I do. This is another reason why I don't want to keep bringing things up, because it's getting repetitive without any changes in the way I feel and I don't want to become annoying. I'm scared because he's going to be going back to college in 2 weeks and I don't know how to address things in a way that will actually make me feel better.
