Blaze86Vic

Women that love have no brain. My ex left me in a loving lasting relationship , to go for a "party type guy" and then got dumped. I saw it coming the first thing. I gave her another chance and she screwwed that up too. She is nice. a very nice person who enjoys spending time with me. It's the same for you it sounds like. I've been screwwed the same as you, and I'm done with that. I don't need that pain. Let her go and avoid her. In a few years she will have grown up (mentaly) and if she really loved you she'll realize it then.

Well, I have a list of reasons to keep going through life. My car, my parents, my family, to work, to make money, to own crap. Now lets weed that down to the important ones, my parents, my family, and my car...just joking. My parents...my Dad is fine, though he knows about as much as you do about me. He just doesn't seem to ever pay attention to anything I ever do. So he is no longer weighed into the reasons to keep going (RTKG). He doesn't even know how old I am, and I just turned 21, yes I do live at home. My Mom, she went through cancer 6 years ago and has never been the same again. She is hatefull and angry at all times. Yesterday whe was cursing and throughing, and smashing....because we were out of bell peppers. Not something that I in partical want to live for. That is my immediat family. Both not RTKG. My distant family, most of them don't care to see me or even talk to me. I keep e-mailing one of my Grandmothers, and all I ever get back is forwards. However the other grandmother thinks I'm perfect.....to my face. All I ever hear when she isn't around is how much I need to change. I still feel that she honestly thinks well of me, it's just her character to complain. That makes 1 RTKG. Uncle #1 is the same as the first grandmother. 2nd uncle is ok. He is an alright person who does things that I do, and listens to me when I speek to him. However he has major anger issues. I can only stand to be around him when is about to sleep, any other time and he is just exploding in anger. I don't hate any of my family. I actually do love them, but I can't even be around them. As for the rest of the world, well there just isn't much there for me. My car is the only outside thing that contributes to my happieness. So in all I have a car and a complaining grandmother. Why should I stay alive. I can't pull the trigger, because I can't do that to my family that I love. But I've been trying to come up with ways to make it look like an accident. I'm not looking to "show them how I feel", or "now they'll wish they hadn't". I just want to be gone. I wake every day with no purpose. I could live I guess, but is it worth it. I mean if I feel like this for 40 years, meet someone great and die the next day, will that one day be worth my 40years of suffering? Will I even get that one day? I dunno, maybe I should just go to work and pay bills for the rest of my life and not complain.

I'm sorry. I'm in the same boat standing right to your left. My woman of over 3 years ditched be and started with one of my 2 friends. And then I find out they had been doing it behind my back. I had just asked her father for permission to become enguaged. That was about 2 months ago. I don't have an answer and so far nothing has helped iether. I've lost 18% of my weight and I was thin to begin with. I'm not much help but I guess the best thing I have gotten out of coming here is that I know that I'm not alone, and niether are you. If you feel the need to talk to someone who completely understands how you feel, shoot me a message. I hope that me and you both feel better soon.

52 Steps ahead of you there. First thing I did was max my $1000 credit card on stuff. Finally got a good digital cameral, some new cloths and more. Then since I got the NASA job, I've spent tons on my car. But after getting all I can for my car at this time, and paying off my credit card. I still feel the same. link removed I really do need more friends, but then it's going to be very hard for me to start being friends with anyone now. I just got burned again by "new friend 1" Maybe I'm just too sensitive. I know that my morals pose an issue as well. I've been so secluded in my upbringing that my morals dictate that what is common place in the world now, is wrong to me. I guess this is my big test to see how well I can adapt to my changing environment. I certainly hope I can.

No. Falling in and out of passion is a common and not unusual occurrence. However "love" does not come and go. It lingers on way past what it should. In my opinion a relationship should be based on love not passion. So that it will last. We have to be careful what we call love, and of who or what we love.

Because I could tell. She liked the sex appeal, and he had the funds to host massive FRAT parties every damn week. Trying to get back with her was probably a very stupid move. But I would have always regretted it if I had not tried. I know I need more friends, but that is kind of hard for someone like me. I'm not a very outgoing person. Not to mention I don't really have the extra funds to have a social life, unless I gave up on my car. And that's pretty much the best thing going for me now. I'm also in college so there is a huge amount of cost in itself, plus the added time eater (since I'm here to get a degree that I am going to use, not because I have nothing better to do). Another thing is that it is hard for me to relate to people. My car is the only thing I really do per say. Other than that I spend my time working at work, or working at home. It's kind of sad; I don't think I really know how to have fun anymore, lol. I used to play video games like crazy, but for some reason, ever since this crap happened, I haven't enjoyed any of my gaming. I guess I've got so much inside I just end up getting mad at the game for no reason. I went to a car show for my online car group and I don't think I improved on any social skills there. I did the same thing I usually do, hang out in the background after I introduce myself. I also found that I inherited that miner Japanese allergic reaction to alcohol, so I can't drink to help being social either.

I wasn't sure where to put this but I guess this will do. I had been with some for a very long time, her name was Amy. I really do love her. She will never know how much. I was planning on getting engaged this summer to her. I had already asked her family. I was close to them as well. They really made me feel welcome and part of the family. We had been dating since 20-12-2001. I March of this 05 year she decided that she wanted to separate. I was shocked and destroyed. Over three years and she just wanted to end it because she met a "better looking rich guy". I never would have thought that to come from her. Maybe I'm just oblivious. I'm not a big social guy or anything. At the time I was limited to Amy and my one other friend Tommy. That was my big social group. So she left me, and she calls me up a week later because the "better guy" screwed her and then left her... Imagine that. I've never stopped loving her, and I may have been a fool but I had to try. So I consoled her in her ignorance. I thought things were going better between us. My entire life had started to turn around. Tommy and I became closer, Amy and I were getting better, and I got a job at NASA. Then in one single Instant Message I lost everything. Tommy messages me that he has been screwing Amy for the past week behind my back. It has been almost 4 moths since that and I feel as bad as I did that day. So now what? I have lost my friend. I have no one to talk to. And it happened so sudden that I didn't stop loving her, though it might not have mattered. I can never see her face again. I can never see either one of them. I have lost everything, what about NASA? Well he works there, and I just couldn't stand to work beside him (as you could imagine). I found another job on NASA so that worked out ok. But I'm still alone. I don't know what to do. I miss her so much. I lost my love, my friend, and half of my family. I want so bad to talk to her, because she was the person I turned to when I needed help. I can't see myself with anyone else; I can't see myself forgetting about her. I'm running out of options, but I really need to talk to someone, so that is why I am here. I used to be a loner, but after 3+ years of having someone to be with all the time I can't be alone. I have grown to need that support. I think the worst part is that I can't even trust a friend in my time of need. My love will always be, but I wish I knew how I could love again...