Queen88

Okay....onre more post about our situation and then its all you guys. He treats me like a queen. He is really sweet to me in bed. He tells me im pretty. He says that no matter what he knows he'll end up with a girl. Because he liked girls before his escapade with his friends. He said he has no desire to get with a guy now. At all. Even if we were to break up. He just enjoys gay porn. I loooove guys. There was a time when I thought I liked girls....but it was a passing thing. Like Lexicon.....when is the past the past? Should I just let the past be the past right now as long as he can still continually get hard to me. BUT if it gets worse.....leave?

Okay, so I just asked him randomly....and he said "guys are slightly more sexy"..... It just keeps getting better and better...... I'm soooo confused!

He has gotten off to straight porn before. I mentioned that watching guys get sucked off by a girl would cause the same reaction and he just sorta shrugged. He says that they are both sexy because they are on different levels. Edit Forgot to add that he likes the "you're not suppose to be down there" aspect of a guy sucking off someone else.

the thing is...I didnt know him when he was doing things with guys.

I gurantee that you've probably kissed a girls mouth thats kissed another girl and been down on a girl probably. And FYI the time he was chasing after me he did not do anything with a guy, for the majority of the time at least.

He has looked at straight porn before. NOT often though. But he HAS. He told me that he just likes seeing the guys faces getting pleasure and the moans. He said he never has fantasized about men when he is with me. Ever. He said that there are things about the male body that are attractive (like the rock soldness of it) and he likes the gentle delicate beautiful nature of a womans body. Its been two years since he did something with a guy. He is more masculine but likes his fashion. Thats the only thing.

oh and to your comment about "up the bung" he gets utterly turned off by guys having sex. He enjoys watching the oral sex in gay porn and kissing.

I dont understand the ruining my social life either..... I'm not trying to sound like an insecure and attached person when i say this.....i just wonder if maybe his "relations" with his friends when he was a teenger could be chalked up to raging hormones? Experimenting? I know experimenting with your friends isnt as widely accepted for guys as it is for girls....but could that be part of what is going on with him. My heart has already been put into this relationship...so its not like I can just up and leave and not feel any loss. He chased me for 2 and half years before I finally gave in and went on a date with him. He "dated" one girl before me. Not for long because he said they were too different. He did have his past with his friends....and he does like gay porn.....but he still gets hard to me....more often than not. Its just those times that he doesnt get hard that worry me.

We have watched gay porn together....and it does not cause a reaction with him when he is with me. At all. Soft as anything. Thats whats so weird. We've made videos of us together (sorry maybe too much info) and those get him hard in a matter of seconds. However, when he is alone and bored and has nothing to do...he wanders to his gay porn. The other thing i forgot to add in the first comment was, the not being completely hard during sex, might have been due to (and honeslty probably was this time) to pressure. Other times....he's been hard but its hurt me too much.

Okay. So...my boyfriend of almost a year and a half has told me about his past. For the record we are both almost 20 years old. Past meaning that as a young teenager (ages 13-17) his best friend and him had nights where they would "do things together". In addition to this friend....my boyfriend also had 2 other friends that would do things with him. Naturally, he began to enjoy gay porn. He admitted to me that he has been bisexual since as long as he can remember. (new information to me). When we kiss and all....he "gets excited" perfectly fine. However, when we have sex he isnt that hard and it takes forever (like more than 30mins) to finish. When, he has told me stories about getting one in 5 minutes when wacking to gay porn. I've tried to be understanding because this man is my best friend and my other half. We are literally insepearbale. He says he honestly doesnt want to be "addicted" to gay porn anymore because he wants our relationship to be as best as it can be. However, he cant seem to keep that promise. It always seems to get worse. I've been told that its a "momentary thing" for him and that he really wants me....and wouldnt go out and get with a guy ever again. That part of his life is past him. Yet, I'm constantly thinking to myself that he doesnt really want me....he's only with me because 1)his dad is firmly against gay relationships of any kind 2)its more acceptable in society to be with a girl 3) he doesnt want to hurt me. I dont know what to do. Its not like he cant get hard to me. Its just that he has this obessesion with gay porn. Any advice would be great. Thanks so much.