IdiotMale

I agree with what you have said. I do need to go deep and understand why I did this. My knee jerk reaction is that during the pandemic I have been at home all day working whilst she has been at work so I have been starved of Human interaction but in Hindsight i should of just messaged her and spoken to her about this. I am not bored with our relationship. I love every second of it. I had planned on stopping and haven't done this for a month at least. I have never done anything like this before so I found it very exciting but I clearly put my own gratification above her feeling which at the time I did not consider but seeing what this has done to her has made me realise how foolish this was. I really appreciate your Honesty here this is what I needed to hear

Hi Everyone. First time poster but i need some advice. I (32M) have been with my Partner (30f) for 5years. We bought a house together this year (jan) and have a dog and some ducks. We have recently started trying for a baby. All that said and done I have made a mistake. In the past couple of month i have found a forum which I could get snapchat users from and we could exchange dirty mpictures/messages. I have been using this a couple of times a month in place of pornography. My partner found out last night. I love her with all my heart and do want to spend the rest of my life with her. O don't know how to proceed here. We are still in the same house albeit she did not speak to me last night after our initial conversation about it during which i was honest about this. I did not try to lie or cover anything up when she confronted me about this. This is the first long term relationship i have been in and seeing how much this hurt her has broken me. I was stupid and I am well prepared to be destroyed in any comments that come on this. I dont know how to proceed. I want to make this work and I will do everything in my power to make it work.