Hey people - My first post so please be gentle!
I have been with my girlfriend now for just under 2 years and I do love her very much. At the beginning of the realtionship the Sex was pretty good even though I was her first. But over the last few months, she has revealed to me that it hurts her when we have sex (i am quite big) the sex has been very short and if I am lucky it occurs 3 times a week. She really beats herself up about it and feels as if I am not satisfied and yet alwys try to please her. She is not big on oral - she will receive it gladly but she wont give because "it hurts her jaw" and she gets annoyed. My girlfriend knows my past relationships were very energetic and sex usually occurred 2-3 times a day previously. Personally, i just think the raw attraction has dwindled on her part and to a certain extent it has dwindled on my part - she still thinks I am cute and says i am but I dont know if she is ATTRACTED to me.
NOW - recently, she has suggested what will liven our sex life is if I have sex with another woman. She believes it will be a turn on and she has given me her full permission to go out and have sex - she is serious. The only thing is - she wants me to record it so she can watch me doing it.
I really dont know what to make about all of this. i really do not know what is going on in her head. I have tried talking and discussing it but she reassures me that is what she wants. Generally she is a little reserved in the bedroom but this talk has just come out of nowhere. When we talk about it she says that seeing me with another woman, pleasuring her is her fantasy - making her cum. She wants me to do to the woman what i cant do with her.
Now I love my girl very much and would do anything for her but I am not entirely sure if I can go through with this - it just seems awkward...On top of that how can this help a relationship if its in your relationship history?
Anyone with any thoughts on this or what is going on in her head - please share. It would be greatly appreciated.
Regards,
Confused Joel