HEZ2005

Hello you all. Well I finally spoke to my ex girlfriend and she told me that she wanted to move on. I'm devastated. I really am. I cried all day, I don't think I can cope with the pain. I really love her , she is the one, I'm old , I'm 26 and I'm never gonna find another girl that I love. I'm crying now , I can't eat, can't sleep, can't study, I really wanna die and I do not know what to do ..... PLiz help , Is this normal ???? I wanna kill myself, I can't cope with this pain anymore......What shall I do.............................heeeellllppppppppppppppp.....plizzzzz...................Is this normal ??????????

Well , first of all sorry for my english , i'm from germany. Well I commented my story with my ex-girl in another post. So here is an Update. Pliz read the other post I wrote first to know the whole story. Here is the link : link removed . Well I made NC for about a month, but last saturday I sent her a mail telling her that we needed to talk. So we talked. She told me now that she realized she lover me and she was thinking of getting back together with me. But here is the problem : She was involved with another man, because she sad she felt loved by this guy. So is this normal? In the previous post I told you all that I was cold to her, I was very distant , so she sad she kissed this guy because she was treated like a queen , so she felt very loved, and with me she didn't felt that way. So we continued to talk and I asked her who the guy was. She didn't wanted to tell me, because she said that is was just her experience and it didn't change her feelings for me. She said she realized that she loved me but wasn't sure if she would take me back right now. She wants to think about it very good. Well my question is, does she really love me, Why did she broke up with me saying that she wasn't sure that she loved me but now she is sure she loves me? And what about that guy?? Should I trust her if we get back together. Now this friday we are going to a party so what should I do ?? Ask her to get back together or wait?? .... Thank you very much people. I love you all !!!! Opinions pliz !!!!!

Thank you maggie for your reply. May be you are right , but the strange thing is that we talked about breaking up forever but she didn't wanted to. It's strange, I mean , we barely saw each other the last two months because we didn't had time , so the strange thing is why do she want's to break up even when we almost don't see each other. I mean I'm not disturbing her to study, so why? I'm not bothering her , so I think its definitly a break up forever. And I also think that she don't want to hurt me , because I got depression for almost 7 years now , but she was always with me and she said it didn't matter to her. I want to know the truth . I want her to tell me the whole truth ... Well I will have to wait til 18th july....

Well , first of all my english is not that good, i'm from germany. So sorry for that. Well, the story goes like this. My girlfriend dumped me 3 weeks ago and I'm really, really sad and lonely. I mean I can't study, I can't eat , sleep is very hard and all I do is try to hang out with friends. We had a 4 year relationship , she is now 22 and i'm 26. It was a great relationship but I was always very cold with her. I mean I'm a cold person , it's difficult to me to show my love to girls but the last year I showed her a lot more love. Well we went last february to brazil and it was beatyful. I mean really like a honey moon. Well the thing is that this year she was very stressed because she is now in her last year of law school. I'm also studying law school, but I'm finishing next year. The thing is, what bothered us both was that in some way it was difficult to me to accept that she is better than me at studying. I mean she is a hardworking student and i'm not. I'm a bit lazy. So, this last year she told me that she didn't had the same future thought about us. She is finishing and i still must study the whole next year so she was a bit disappointed with that. I mean she really loved me before this year, she wanted to get married so it was weird. I mean since she started law school this year she was very bad tempered, all the time, because she was stressed. Anyway , she dumped me 3 weeks ago saying she needed a break. Take a break. I also did say I would like to do that because honestly it was not going well and I didn't wanted to beg. You know. I love her, I also lost my virginity with her and she with me. Well the thing is that I really don't know what happened. She loved me very, very much so what happened there. It hurts soooo much. I don't know what to do. Anyway , we ageed that we would talk the 18'th july, so I don't know if a should call her that day or what... ... Why did she stop loving me. I don't get her? Did she fell in love with another guy? .....need answers plizz........bye thank you