Mary A

He is the same person. I am feeling horrible because I unblocked him last night for closure. He insulted me even more like saying I am a cheater, I am worse than his exes and I am a big liar etc. I just need to forgive myself for this weak moment I had when I unblocked him and keep going on. I work full time, but many times I find hard to concentrate on things. My therapist is helpul to some extend as we have goals to achieve and cannot discuss too much about it. It's not a private therapy, so I cannot choose the content of our sessions. I cannot rely on my family as my two other sisters have been abused, one divorced ans second in the process. Similar cases. I feel I am a victim of emotional and verbal abuse, and thanks God I stopped here otherwise would jave reached further. I feel weak as I always promised myself I would never be with someone as my ex brothers in law. Now here I am.

I have posted before on this forum about my breakup. Me and mt ex were trying to sort things for some months, but we ended up getting more hurt and resentful towards each other. He did a lot of gaslighting and insulted me very badly. I have blocked him a week ago and unblocked him today just to tell in a civilised way I want to leave the past behind and he does not have to send what he had from me such as gifts etc. He called me and started insulttinf accusing I am a bad person, i have cheated and compared me with his exes, that I am the worse and I am a ***. These kind of words reallt hurt me. I was a compassionate person ans before him I was only with a guy. I am so heartbroken. I do not feel anymore hatred or anger, just ao sad and disappointed. I blocked him back and realised there should not have been any closure. I was better all this week and now I feel so hurted. Not because he matters to me, but because I remember seeinf him as a good person and mature and I was nice to him. I try to ignore the words, but they stiil hurt. Now I feel weak and should have followed my psychologist advice to not unblock him for closure. He probably is also hurt and said all those bad words to make me feel more pain. I try to motivate myself that I am a good person, bur again I feel so weak because I feel guilty I put myself through so much emotional pain.