Thank you for all your replies! I appreciate them. Honestly, I still love him despite everything. It's not that I think I don't deserve better or I'm scared of commitment. I know better guys, actually and have been crushing on a few for the past week. I know that I deserve someone better. It's just that I don't feel the same butterflies that I get with my ex. Despite the bad times we had, we went on dates, we laughed together and he even apologized for his bad treatment towards me during the relationship. He has a heart, it's just covered with a lot of walls. I love him for him, if that'
My ex and I were together for 2 years, long distance (even though his house is just 30 mins away from mine). We met in high school through a friend and I liked him since we met. I have to admit our relationship was toxic back then since he was going through a tough time in his life. He called me names and cursed at me but I still loved him. Even my friend told me to dump him but I didn't. I decided to take a break from him for at least a few months and after that, I got to talk to him again and he told me "Thank you so much for loving me all this time." and he got a little better than he was b