I am currently training to be in an industry that requires lots of 1on1 training with an instructor. Last fall, I requested to switch instructors because I became attracted to him and my performance suffered. Embarrassing, I know.
Now, the same thing is happening again. My performance is suffering due to the same reason. And I don’t know if I can take the embarrassment/shame of switching again. I’m just thinking about dropping out of this training altogether to clear my mind but I don’t have any alternative career paths as of now. I feel like there’s no way out and I’m just terrified.