Hi good people of eNA!
So, I will try to keep this short and will not go into detail about the relationship (or this would turn into a novel).
I texted my Ex with whom I did not have ANY contact in more than 4 years.
I saw that he checked one of my SocialMedia profils a few weeks ago which tbh surprised me and send me into a bit of a spiral.
Our relationship was good until it turned very bad, for reasons I'm still not sure about. He dumped me in the end.
And I fully admit: eventhough he treated me terrible, there is a small part of me that never got fully over him and always saw him as special.
Anyway, he was VERY receptive and we chatted for a day. It has now been two days since my last message and he hasn't responded. So I guess it is save to assume that this was it.
I knew, going into it, that I would get hurt. I hoped it would help me FINALLY closing this chapter of my life and moving on...I guess I just finally came to terms with the fact that I was not special to him and just one in a long list of conquests. I should have been able to gather this from the way he treated me before and during the breakup but it seems I was not.
I have a really hard time understanding why I am so stuck on this person (and yes, I have made an appointment with a psychologist). He was not my first relationship, he wasn't my last... Maybe it is because it was my best and my worst relationship at the same time...
I just really needed to share this with someone and I didn't feel comfortable going to my friends or family with it. Maybe someone has some advice or support.
Thank you for reading :)