To put it short, misunderstandings, our communication and addressing conflicts was very bad because she is very indirect at showing problems. By the time she addressed them directly she shortly after started a break to "forget". The things she felt were wrong were extremely minor, she couldn't even pinpoint them when addressing them. It was clear she was going through tough times and just wanted to party, outside of conflict resolution we could talk to one another for 8 hours straight and not get bored.
It's really hard to have fun because I know what I lost, our chemistry is something