I know. I shouldn’t have. But I did and now I have to deal with it. I’ve told him before that I’m not 100% okay with free porn but I’m getting better. It’s not something I want to bother me and I’ve been working on it. But once you start paying for it and getting custom videos then it becomes cheating to me. You can’t tell me it’s ‘just a video’ then pay $85 for a custom video from a porn star. It’s something we’ve talked about before. I’ve told him I don’t like that he’s paid for it before and I don’t want him to do it again and he agreed and said he wouldn’t. Well, I went snooping on his pornhub and saw that spending $85 on a custom video was exactly what he did. He’d also bought 3 others since the last time we’d talked about it. I don’t know what to do. I shouldn’t have snooped so I don’t want to say anything, but this hurts a lot to see. I don’t know how or if I should bring it up to him.
I tried to talk to him about custom content today, not mentioning I know he bought some, and once again he agreed that it was cheating. What do I do? We’ve been together for 2 years and I love him very much. This is also my first and only major relationship. I feel very lost sometimes.
Thank you all in advance.