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  1. Who fights when they cannot? A 1,500 sq foot house Three bedrooms One bathrrom Five occupants You lie twenty feet from your neighbors house In the middle of the night You hear cussing You hear a fight You hear rapid fire of a drive by You don’t wake up anymore You just open your eyes Toss a little bit and then roll back over You have to get up in the morning you tell yourself You have two jobs to work No health insurance And Dad needs his medication Your husband has left Your children are distressed From the lack of you The lack of school There are no new books No new things Just torn up battered raggedy flings So they skip And do drugs But what are you gonna do Chase them on the run You make 17 grand a year The rent The food You only had cereal for dinner last night The heat needs fixing And the stove barely works So you continue Until you feel your own quirks When you finally You sneak in their bedroom And take what they seem to hype up as cocaine You use it for some extra energy and a little more tame Until next thing you know Your on the line You need something else You need something more Your at the drug dealers house asking for his store You don’t want the snow, you don’t want the powder You want the strongest stuff of the hour You’ll do anything you say To take away the pain Of the sweat and the cold As you lie and you roll On the cold bathroom floor Youll take his pants off right there Youll let him rip you bare You’ll do anything to take away the pain You quit your job Your about to loose your house And still dad is dieing without a doubt Your eldest in jail For doing too many rails And your still addicted You even forget the mail But what does it matter Who even cares No one does for me you say I’ve worked myself bare You stare at the sealing And you try to catch your breathe As the world keeps spinning, you know you have nothing left And before the world collapses and your eyes begin to shut You ask yourself Why was I to blame But as those questions begin in your last frame The world collapses and no one remembers Not even your name Who fights for those Who try But can’t get out?
  2. There wasn’t much to say So I let fall into the rain I let my life pass me by Drinking daily, smoking just to get high Living the high life on a fast roll Forgot about my roots and my soul Left them all behind For the laughs and nothing more I forgot about those who live their life poor I forgot about my brothers and sisters The ones I swore to protect To stand up and make a change I forgot to do what I was put here to do I took a drink before I took their hand I blinded myself with what I wanted to be ok And I forgot about my troubles in them surrounded me each day The people up on the block The people still smokin rocks I left them all behind Found myself and want a change Live for something that is worth living to reign To reign down on something great To make people smile in each and every way To give back to the world that has gave to me These gifts and opportunities that let me think The ones that differ me from those who blind themselves I gotta give back Give back to those in need My brother, my sister, our brother, our sister I left um behind And now its my time To change those who are left broken inside….
  3. Sick of the way things are Sick of the way things are the same Sick of the way that there is no change Sick of the way that things are day after day Sick of the way people think Sick of the way people drink Sick of waking up every morning and feeling little Sick of seeing people live their life for nothing Sick of people throwing it away getting in a damn car after so many drinks Sick of people saying things are going to be ok when they repeat again and again Sick of people living for a drink Sick of people living not to think Sick of people not wanting to interact with one another Sick of all of this that I cannot change Sick of not being able to run away because I can’t do even if I was 18 and an adult Sick of this Sick of that Sick of people who hate others Sick of not being able to run away just for a day Sick of being bored Sick Just sick.
  4. I know i have had this in the past,and thats why i was worried about posting it, i don't know why i am always so worried, but she said she was worried also. Latley she has been a month cycle like November 19-December 19. But for some reason she thought she would get it before that because her cycle was never that long before we took PLAN B. So i dont know, she has been feeling nausea. I just read all these posts about pre-cum and stuff that get girl pregnant even from mutual masturbation. I mean i am always careful, but the risk just blows my mind, ever since that one time the condom broke i have been kind of paranoid.WE have NOT had sex, in like 3 months, and dont plan too, than am i freaking out over nothing, because we have just had oral, and fingering? I dunno. ~empty
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    Confused...

    Girlfriend is 4 days late. Yet we never had sex, she is a little worried about it as am i. she took plan B two months ago and we think it may be screwing with her cycle but not sure. We did not have sex, so i just dont understand, she always finishes on me so there is no way that could have been true semen, the only way it could be anything was pre cum, but i didnt enter her. Why am i so paranoid? She has felt nausea the last two days so of course i think its morning sickness, yet she sometimes gets sick before her period. Im damn confused. ~Empty
  6. Look to your left, look to your right i find out its so da** hard to fight to keep your might on this bitter cold flight Do we hide what we cannot see? or do we ignore it it in glee? All the war, hatred and death? is it necessary, or am i on meth? am i the one on drugs, am i only one who sees these things all the lil kids running away with no dreams all the lil kids scheming on drugs just to get by. When did drugs, sex, and violence become our aliby? Look inside your heart Look inside your mind do you find sympathy at the world we have in time or am i the only one who feels pain in the depths of my soul for every kid placed again on the death toll maybe im crazy and im the only one who cares because as much as i see the more that people stare the more that people do nothing but walk on with their hands in the pocket and their head held up high never to look down below those who dont lie on their social ladder eye So maybe ill bomb with the others and give a little maybe im the crazy one and i should be belittled neverthless if i have nothing to give in this form of pain i will be the only one who sees this world again again "if you ignore what you dont want to see, are you not lieing to yourself?" ~EMPTY
  7. We had sex on Oct 22, so with plan B and all she should be coming up soon, or do i give her until around the 25th of november since she was spotting....or her period was off and on.....(finishing up after plan B) to show any signs or to see if she has missed a period. After she took the plan B test on Oct 22 her period came on and off for 2-3 days afterwords which either meant to me that she wasnt pregnant because the period was still continuing or she was just spotting as Plan b said side affects. keep in mind she was on her period when we had sex. So on a 28 day cycle wouldnt that mean that she would ovulate soon....? or do i give her until the 24 or 25 because this is when she was spotting after taking the plan B pill? im sorry i am being so persistent with all of this but i am confused. She has been crying a lot because she is stressed over college, this doesnt have anything to do with depression signs of pregnancy? please help ~empty
  8. i cant tell her that i am worried. i cant at all, everytime i mention a home test she gets very angry so i wont because i dont want to mention it to her at all. it is only 10 days until her next period. i should be able to wait that long but it seems like everyday i count the days until it comes up. and i cant just ask her if shes on her period. i have been reading up on first month pregnancy signs and i have noticed only one. however it is to early to tell if she has missed her period yet due to it will not come up till around Nov 25, the internet did say that signs of depression may come up, and she has been feeling very very down. i am starting to get scared. as many of you have read in my past posts i have shown that she was on her period, i used a condom (althought it broke) i did pull out before i ejaculated and we took the plan B pill just in case because the condom did break. i want to be there for her, i always will be i am never the guy who runs, i hate people like that, but i am paranoid she doesnt know it. i dont know what to do is this depression is just like hitting me hard, it seems like once i see one sign online i flip out because it could mean shes pregnant. She hasnt gained any weight, her breasts arent tender because she hasnt said anything about them when i have touched them. i just dont know what to do, why am i flipping out so much, i cant make or even mention a home pregnancy test. i just am flipping out, do you think she is maybe just down and i am over reacting, or am do i relaly have a valid point. i took all necessary precautions plan b pill says it is works 89 perecent of the time...i hate being paranoid but i really am. please can someone give me real advice besides be more careful next time...or take a home pregnancy test. ahhh, sorry, i am just stressed ~empty
  9. i am saying that my girlfriend and i had sex on her period two weeks ago, while she was on her period, and the codom broke, i did not ejcualte in her, and it was only broken at the end i believe. yet, to prevent anything she took the plan B pill. how effective is the plan b pill? and if she did happen to get pregnant would her period stop? because after she took the pill it stopped, does that mean she was pregnant or did it mean that the pill just screwed with her cycle. then for teh next few days it was on and off. does this it was just finishing out her cycle because she was only on day 2 when we had sex, or does this mean that she wont get her cycle again this month?, whatever the odds the main two questions i have are If a women were to get pregant on her period would it just stop? and After reading my lasts posts do you think she could be, because she was on her period, and we did take plan b.... i appreciate your help ~empty
  10. i know that i have posted twice already. but please i just need your opinion. i do know about contraceptives i really do so i dont need advice on that i jsut need your opinion. PLEASE READ UNFORTUNATE MISHAPS CONTINUED. please please please i am flipping out here. if a girl were tto get pregnant on her period would it just stop? PLEASE PLEASE READ UNFORTUNATE MISHAPS PLEASE thank you ~empty.
  11. Hello, i am continuing this post from a post i had up maybe about two weeks ago. If you feel interested in reading the whole thing be my guest it would probably give you more insight. First of all let me say i am not writing this to seek advice on not having sex or contraceptive methods believe me i know plenty of them i am not uneducated, this was just a one time mistake, and it will not happen again....because we will not be having sex for a long time we decided. i just need opinions for my own sake. heres the basic jist of the whole situation me and girlfriend had sex two weeks ago, and the condom broke. However i did not ejaculate in her, she was on her period when we had sex. and we did take the plan B pill just in case. However after she took the plan B pill her period stopped. so we got really scared. It came back a day later, and did this repeatedly for about 3-4 days. it came and went. Plan b does have side affects it says about screwing up the cycle, but i was just wondering if anyone else had had this happen, or if this sounds normal. I believe that if she got her period after being scared about it, would it not mean that she could not be pregnant, because if she was for the next 3-4 days she could not possibly get her period, correct? And if she had gotten pregnant while on her period would her period just stop? Because if thats wats supposed to happen than that proves my point that she could not because it came again. Second question is what are your opinions on this? because i am almost positive that because of all the precautions we took such as her being on her period, me weraring a condom and i know it broke but i did not ejaculate in her, and then took the plan b pill, and then her period coming back. this pretty much gurantees that she cannot be pregnant correct? i mean if she WAS pregnant it could nto come back? Advice and comments would be greatly appreciated thank you. ~empty
  12. the other night me and my girlfriend who have been together for quite some time now decided to engage in sex for the first time. unfortunately we had never done it before because of the scare of pregnancy. so we took many possible steps to ensure safety. i wore a condom of course, and i know this may sound wrong but was on her period. i knwo that this is the safest time to have sex because there is no egg in plant. she was on her second day of her period which should mean there was nothing there. unfortunately somehow becauase i have terrible luck at the end it broke. not until the VERY end however, and i did not realize it until it felt to be more warm, i pulled out to finish because i was going to pull out anyway when i realized the condom had broke. of course i was scared, who wouldnt be, but also my girlfriend was very emotional. the next morning we went and got plan b. she took both pills as the doctor instructed her. that same day some of side affects kicked in such as nausea, i felt terrible, what guy doesnt when the perosn they love is not feeling well? she went to the bathroom and came back even more emotional. she said her period has stopped. of course i contacted the doctor and he said that this could be possible because of how much estrogen there is in the pill, that this pill could really throw her cycle threw a loop. the doctor worked in labor and delivery so i am pretty sure he knew what he was talking about. yet, she was still a little nervous as was i, i trust the pill, i trust that i pulled out and did not cum inside her, but still wanted another reassurance. today her period picked up again as it was suspected it would, yet it only lasted for about an hour, and then ended again. she said it acted as if it was ending. i understand the pill can throw things off. now she is worried again, i got a doctors opinion and he says it is very very unlikely for a girl to get pregnant on her period espcially since i was wearing a condom till it broke, i did not ejaculate and she was on her period, plus the pill. but i just need feedback from other people i suppose because it helps when you get opinions. please comment thanks ~empty
  13. As a child you sat in your play place and looked and smiled with grace The whole world was in front of you, but all you wanted was those toys When you grew up did you ever think you would be playing with guns and knives As a child you knew nothing of death, now death breeds in your name So where has the child gone in us? Where as the innocent playful being gone to? Has it disappeared so far away that we have lost sight, or is it in the back of our brain but we refused to recognize its flight. Why are we fighting my brothers and sisters? I ask you why, why do we go so far to kill each other? And forget about our brothers This isn't the answer it never has, instead of making love we are making hate And worse than that we are breeding it for future generations comes to date Some say there is no answer, but I disagree It's been there since we have began our life If we all learned to love instead of hate we could live in peace and harmony So I beg of you. Put down your guns, put down your knives And once and for all I beg of you Let's make peace Once and for all
  14. It's the second time Ive fell again I promise ill never ever love again For in the end All I do Is end up getting hurt by you Once, twice why don't I take my own advice Don't get close and you'll be happy Scared I always was, but pushed my way through Both times ended in nothing but * * * * I'm tired of these ways The way they hit you again and again With their appetizing fruit You bite it And become a mute You fall in love, and you make your way Down to misery hello again gloomy day They act if they care they say they wouldn't dare to turn away to go away for you're all they want for all there days yet one step around a different corner and poof your nothing but another runner so run, run, run again because I will never ever fall in love again
  15. Staring Eyes Staring eyes depict my crimson lies Staring eyes take tragedy in despise For I am not the cream of the crop, nor the pressure of pain But the darkness of emptiness I reveal again Staring eyes, o staring eyes, how you take away my pride inside For I have left marks and footprints upon the sand And in my marks I have left personality traits and strands Clues and hints are left just for you To understand these truths that I spread to you Staring eyes take away my alibi Staring eyes make quiet inside To raise not the voice, for one shall not speak If one has broken a leak, where pain floats and pain descends Pain breaks the eternal to an end Staring eyes, o staring eyes, how you take away my pride inside I can't manage a sort, I can't manage a smile inside my soul For when I reach in I feel two pieces, I am not whole From one meaning to another, I cannot take away the way you misspeak, It hurts when your eyes call me a freak Staring eyes take away the fun of the ride Staring eyes they take away anyone to confide So you live, you learn, and you let go Walking through the forest, more than seven days to go For there is no whole, there is no time For seven days has held itself within a dime Staring eyes, o staring eyes how you hurt my pride inside So one walks, till one can't quench, nor taste Everything disappears in one final trace Life is eternal for never not Inversion I find is the clue to my everlasting spot Flip me around, and turn the ground upside down Forever my secret is kept sound "Staring eyes, o staring eyes how you hurt my pride inside."
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