Long story short- I dated a guy three years ago& he broke my heart - he’d majorly pursued me but then he left me while he was stressed about financial problems. Four months later he tried to get me back &spent 2years trying.
This March after no contact for eleven months I texted him. He was incredibly enthusiastic and we arranged to meet on the Saturday. On the Friday lockdown started. We have been texting three months - a little on/off as he does tend to vanish for a few days every so often. I was stressed from work , was worried that was seeping into our conversation so said I would take a few weeks no contact to get my head straight- the not knowing when we could meet was making it difficult.
The next day (Thursday) he texted, I reiterated that it wasn’t about him, but by then the social bubble scheme had been announced. We arranged to bubble and he would come on Sunday: his idea and he was mega enthusiastic. Saturday I message him, he replied with perfectly normal, friendly message. I replied. Literally 2mins later I’d been blocked across platforms. I’m so confused and hurt.
I know he is immature/cowardly etc. I know this behaviour shows how unworthy of me. I don’t need to hear more of this.
He lost his sister in December and is still suffering. We have both been badly hurt in the past and were looking forward to being together as we are both just nice people (he is so kind and lovely when emotionally well).
Although he tends to vanish he has never blocked me before. I just don’t get why, when he has tried to get back with me for years &we’ve waited for three months he cuts all ties and drives me away forever the day before we would finally be together. After he was so enthusiastic. I know it is his problem not me, but I’m so frustrated at how unfair it has been. If not for lockdown we would have met three months ago. I miss him deeply and I’m so sad never to talk to him again- we have this bizarre connection and I love just the random chats we would have. I’m trying to move on but hate that this is so final and without warning. It feels like something has been cut away from me.