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  1. I dunno today my dad told me that I should be treated like the dirt of the earth. I started to cry and then he hit me accross the face, i have a blue/purplish mark around my eye......i cant take it being brown
  2. my parents tell me almost everyday that brown is the color of the devil and that it symbolizes poverty and ignorance, maybe they are right i dunno.
  3. No matter what happens or what people do racism will always be present in the world because as long as we have different races/cultures/ethnicites/religon etc, we will always have racism
  4. You agree because that friend has accepted to be thought of as a piece of crap person and all the negtaive things associated with being brown even tho he is not.
  5. Thats true but its BS created by some anti-racist propaganda group so people would stop to thinking like that but ITS NOT WORKING =(
  6. Im sure that has contributed, but theres nothing i can do to fix this problem but accept that i am differnt and be viewed as what i said in the above post. I dont wanna accept something that is not true, i dont want to accept that people view me as things that are not true even tho they are "ignorant". All of you who stop and think WHY whites think like this, they have legit reasons, think about it.
  7. See the only option to cure this problem is to not care or accept this problem. I refuse to do that and accept that other people view me as a piece of crap because of the color of my skin.
  8. I think im just going to commit suicide by marinating myself in a bath of bleach that way i can be white forever. No i am not joking.
  9. When things like this happen to you more then 5 times, i dont think its a coincidence and dont just happen randomly and take every eigth person like the FAA says.
  10. Im going to be completely serious and uncensored about this post im about to make. Mother natures diversity is beautiful, but being brown in our world/society is like being the scum of the earth. When youre brown you are either a latino or the mexican who is a dumb physical laborer and the rest of the ignorant sterotypes, or your a muslim/arab who will terrorize people. People think like that and it sucks. NO ONE can deny this because you know that a majority of people think like this or almost all and im talking deep inside.
  11. I think my main problem is not hatred of being brown, but rather wishing i was white
  12. you see how many people of brown complexion have posted things that agree with what i am saying. No i will not post a picture of myself because everybody will jusy say positive things rather then the truth. No one knows how i feel about this issue in my life, so no1 knows about my personal self image regarding being brown except maybe my father is slightly aware because he knows that as a child in summer camp i was once called the mexican.... and im sure that is what probably sparked the issue and what traumitized and made me realize how horrible it is to be brown
  13. Thats the thing, the only way to take care of this problem is too accept that other people view you as inferior to them because of the color of your skin
  14. im degrading myself because my color is a defection of human beings. The worst part about being brown is nevermind id start a racist argument here. You wanna know a funny story. This has happened to me twice the same scenario. Whenever i travel, i always go with my faily. So once we were going thru security check, and the offical there stopped me and said we have to do a random security check ( lol what BS), and then my dad said i was with the family, and the offical was like ohh ok, you just fit the profile of a suspected terrorist. They are not supposed to say that, but he did, in front of me and my family. This has happened to me twice, being degraded to a piece of crap because of your color in front of your loved ones
  15. because you grew up around it, you learned to accept it when you were young and did not know the difference. Unfortuenatly most people arent as privileged as you to understand brown people like me. For example, i would never be able to live in a place like Iowa or a dominantnly white area without experienceing heavy racism an criticism. I wish i was dead, being brown sucks in todays world.
  16. I used to think it was in my head till i realized how everyone around me including my family and friends would mention things about or say a joke about it. Like this morning, my mom and I were flipping thru old pictures and we came accross a picture of me when i was 3 years old. She said " Wow look how white you used to be, i still dont understand how you became the muslim brown you look like now". Im aware my mom is ignorant.
  17. when you crack jokes about the color of your skin your making fun of your self. I used to do that but i realized people just view you as a person who accepts your defect of being a human being.
  18. You guys dont understand its not only the color of your skin, its the facial features etc etc the dark dark black hair. I live in Miami, and its very multicultural but I guess i realized how people view the world. Unfortuentealty, most people dont think about brown people like you do, they see it as a social-economic/racist thing. And people go tanning not because they want to be brown , tanning makes you look good because you become tan not brown, and yes there is a HUGE difference. Being tan is different then being a piece of s**t brown color. No one will ever understand. Yes im bi-racial you could say like most of the 2nd generation here in miami, im israeli/columbian and jewish. Ive NEVER met anyone who isnt surprised when i say im jewish, most people say i look arab or indian or something. Sometimes i just feel like killing myself, I probably will one day. How ill i ever go out with a white woman, and a real nice classy woman.. they dont accept my color at all. Maybe some people do, but not the majority.I can guarantee if i ever apply for a high position, i will be rejected due to the color of my skin. Sometimes i dont blame whites for hating non-whites, think about it from there perspective.. for real try it. Its hard to live in a world where the color of your face makes an immediate political statement.
  19. You know it really is hard being brown or non-white in a white supremeist world. Do NOT deny it by saying we dont, because everyone knows we do. Most of the people i live with are white, and even mostly everybody in family is pure porceliein european skin white. I just happened to be brown, and I live in a society where people really dont discriminate publicly, but i can feel it sometimes. Its hard being called many different names and races, ive been called everything from mexican,arab,black,indian,muslim,latino,hispanic,afgahni etc etc, things that dont even make sense. Even my mother of white skin tone, says some comments that really hurt me inside, even though they are not really that bad in general. You my position is very odd, because all my imediate family is white, and im the only brown one, and when i have to fill out a form and check off my ethnicty its hard, im caucasin in terms, but i do not look caucasian at all. I think its going to be tough leaving to college soon because a MAJORITY of the people there are white. Im also going to be studying business and i think it will be extremly hard to find jobs etc because of the fact that the color of your face makes a political statement. I know this is really off topic but i needed a place to vent my feelings about being brown. There is no reason to take pride in it or be proud, or is there any reason why i should feel better about it. Its hard to live in a society where non-whites are looked upon as rubbish. This is comepletely serious and not trying to be emotional etc, but If there was one thing i could have, it wouldnt be a nice car or something of that nature, it would be for me to be white. Its hard dealing with something that you can NEVER get rid of. Its really funny meeting people sometimes because i live in a community where everybody is white, and then i come along and they see me, im not being paranoid or overthinking it, you can see the surprise and shock of my color and the disgust in some people. I could tell by schools college counseler that she was trying to give me the message that Im brown, im gonna end up being doin physical labor and job due to the ignornance of the sterotype of brown mexicans.
  20. Hey, this is gonna sound really stupid etc, and i dont usually take comments personal like this, but for the past year or so ive been always pondering about my intelligence. I dont know how to explain it really, but im really very sensitive about because i go to a very competitive school, and sometimes i feel that im inferior to people, but DEEP inside i know i can do better then most people. Ive been called a ,retard,idiot many times but on a few occasions ive been called smart etc. I know this subject sounds sort of self-centered but i feel like im an airhead sort of and that people look down upon me and that im viewed upon as an idiot. My friends parents are very successful people . He is respected by many people, and recently (this is gonna sound really stupid) they said " wow i thought that he was really dumb, good for him he got that". I know it sounds like really dumb, and most of you are probably thinking wow just forget about it, dont worry. The problem is do worry, first because he is in the type of career i would like to be in later in life, and i take opinions by successful people very seriously. Sometimes people at school are looking around for help etc, they start going through people but whenever they get to me they go " Nahh nevermind you wouldn't know this". I really have no idea why, i dont get bad grades, i do well in school, i dont do stupid things. I have a feeling it could be because im a jokster. I know this sounds really stupid and that i have an EXTREME low self esteem because of my reaction to a comment like this, but i really dont... i think.
  21. Hey guys, im 16 and i feel as if i am waste of time. I know this is going to sound very cliche etc, but i've never had a girlfriend, ive never really talked to a girl for REAL, and when i say real i mean a conversation that lasts past 5 min of straight real talking. I only really have about 3 or 4 friends that i relate too outside of school. I live in a society where most of the people are upperclass and very successful, and suffering from what i think is social anxiety or fear of being rejected doesn't help. I do well in school, but i feel that it is nothing if i cant interact with individuals. I look up to my father for everything, even the bad things that he does, ill do myself. Recetnly my father ranted down at me and told me how i will never succed at life and its not even worth it too try because i will just turn up a failure. Im sure your all gonna say that he was upset etc at the moment, but he wasnt and he looked me straight in the eye and told me this. besides this i feel very lonely and depressed because i dont really go out alot and in engage in many social activities. i just play some MMORPGS on my comp, and go to the gym once and a while. Thats my summer. Im known as a really funny kid, but i also feel like im an envious person as well, and i can make friends with almost any male.The one thing that really kills me is that i've never had a conversation/relationship with a girl whatsoever. Ive never actully tried and thats what i think kills me. A peer at school (i was shocked)! asked me why i dont engage in activities with girls etc, cause im a good looking kid! i was shocked! basically ive went off topic now maybe 3 times... main. I really feel that if i was a charasmatic guy with people id be a VERY VERY happy person.
  22. I know how most of you will answer my question but i'd really like something more realistic, instead talking to her and ask her about her past/family/hobbies,asking for her number etc. I'd really like somethin realistic for a shy guy. I dont want to make it to obvious, cause it can turn out to be really obvious. My situation is the basic, i like the girl who sits accross for me in class =P
  23. Its really starting to upset me. I cant have a conversation with anyone, sometimes even with people im closest too. I really only have about 4 close friends that know me really well, and who i hang out with. Other then that i only have some acquaintances in school, who i can maybe have a conversation for about 5 minutes, and then ill just decide to leave or something for another class, cause i cant think of anything else to talk about.Since ive been hooked on MMORPG's since my teens, all i like to do is play them, which takes me away from social activities. Its hard enough to try and talk to those "friendly" girls, who flirt with everyone. I can just never think of anything to say after a few statements, or i say something stupid to girls. Ive been told i am a very funny guy by many people, but i only open up to people who i am close too, so if im not close to them, i basically act like an idiot/mute. Like someone in my class saw me somewhere with my friend, and as she was saying hi to me, she told me " i never knew you could talk!, you seem pretty cool, why dont u talk in math class!. I really wanna fix this problem, i just need to feel more comftable and less nervous around people.
  24. You cant really tell if a girl is being friendly or flirty sometimes, ive been through a few instances like this. I really need a SERIOUS opinion, be honest and say if this one is a flirt or a friendly. This hot girl i really like, is confusin me. i approached her and since then i cant really tell if shes flirting or being friendly, because she flirts with me and others, but at the same time, she ALWAYS stares at me seriously or sometimes naively while im walking down the hall. She is VERY flirty with others, even others girls. She seems to laugh at alot of the things i say, even when i dont even intend to be funny. I have a class with her, but i sit basically on the OTHER side of the room, and she flirts wit other boys right in my face. That is a sign of flirting, but i really like this one, thats why im sorta confused, and sometimes she really looks like initimidated by me or somethin.. i dunno
  25. There's this girl that i have had a crush on for a while. it seems to me that she likes me as well, i really think she does but i dont really know how to ask her out, or like let her know that i like her. I dont wanna say some g4y line like " I wanna make our relationshop better... etc" or something g4y like that. Anyone got any ideas?
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