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Yes, I hve told my doctors, phychiatrist and therapist about them. However, the imporvements are insignificant. To be honest its the depression thats bothering me right now.

Hi, thank you all so much for your replies, and sugar I enjoyed reading your message. BAsically, my mental health probelms are all out of control. I don;t know where to start, i havent been formally diagnosed OCD or phychosis because am pretty sure even my phychiatrist doesnt know. It all started a few years back When I was 15 (now 20) a friend burst a chrisp packet in my ear, and i thought that would send me deaf. Over the next few years i felt really paranoid about anybody touching me around the ears, if someone touched my head i would think extreme, like i would get bain damage or bbecome less intelligent. This gradually wore off when i was 18, then off i went to uni. Then i started becoming really persucuted about this friend espiciaally, and even think to this day he is trying to blind me. Every time i am now home, i check everywhere i walk incase he is there, and is not spying on me. The OCD came in because also when i walk over roads, or drive my car i think of bad accidents happening, so i have obsessional thinking that an accident maybe did happen, but it never really i just cant ration with myself. I have no thoughts about contamination with germs. Sometimes when i drive, i have the urge to throw myself off the road, and lately have been very anxious about if i have a pen in my hand, like all of a sudden i will jam it down my ear. I was on sertraline anti depressants for a few months, and now I have been on respidone anti-phychotics for about a month. Its like am s hit scared of harm coming to my body, but at this moment in time i feel fine - just depressed about denmark for which aboout i am going to write my mate in denmark a letter. Anyway, now you all know am crazy lay back and judge me am not paranoid they;re really after me....... but i can have a sense of humour about my 'illness' regardless.

hi, thanks for your reply. But how do i deal with these OCD issues? 1 doctors telling me i have ocd/ the other doctor is tellin me i have phychosis. Ive been in therapy for months and i cant seem to adapt to this change. I miss denmark, really not home because i was depressed at home. They thought i had OCD because i always think of bad things, and i have to check byc rossing over the road several times to see if i have been hit by a car, when i smoke i smoke 3 in a row to persuade myself that i didnt hurt myself etc etc. Please, this is really killing me here.

Hi, I have suffered mental problems for several years and started to get help this summer. Lately, I have been feeling really depressed - while this was a start to start my new life. This year, I was living in denmark for four months and was really happy although sufferin from OCD/mild phychosis. Then i went back to Liverpool, things started to be ok - just working all the time. This september i started my new life in newcastle, thinking it would be as fun as in denmark uni life all over again, but i hate it. Peeople dont seem to mix here. I dont find anybody interesting. I also miss my girlfriend all probably better put my sex partner i had in denmark, i miss my friends in denmark and the community. I feel really depressed and all the time think it'll never be the same again. Lately ive joined an onliine datin agency - but thats early days yet. I work all the time because uni is giving me lots of demands, and i work a lot in my part time job at the weekends because i want the money. I feel so lonely, i hear sometimes from my friends in demark but not much. WHen i was over there, i thought it'll be ok coming back to england because ive got newcastle uni to look forward to. Please help me, anybody.

Recently, I came on here and explained my thought/feelings and people told me that maybe I was devloping scizophrenia, however when I returned back in my home country about a week ago, i went straight to the doctor. I am gettign reffered to a specialist in the next week or so. However, now i think i am probably more likely to have OCD, and after completing a test on the net, where 12 was the tope score where "you are probably likely to have OCD", my score was 25! which probably means am likely to have it. Has anybody had this and do they know how effective treatment is? My thoughts are like i cross the road, anmd wonder if a car had hit me, even though i think io didn't feel anything, i picture that it did and can;t rationalise with myself to stop thinking about it. But it happens like 30 times a day, like 30 episodes a day and I think about it all the time. am telling ya my days of thinking about booze and woman all the time are over, ;-( I've also got this mega obsession with some friedn of mine who i think is trying to harm me, and can't stop looking round to see if he si there hiding behind walls to spy on me. Now the days are worse than ever, and i have to wait longer to see a specialist and to be honest guys, am really nervous and scared about facing the world everyday, I really feel like am cracking up, but am happy with the way I am, I mean if you're a sexy b**tard liek me, who wouldn't? But really, I think am going to turn into the next Howard Huges, and the way i read about OCD is that only some people get cured by really good doctors who understand it, who are hard to find and [porbably will cost a loot fo money knowing my luck. Cheers peoples

Do you really think though, personally, I do have it? Because I have some symptoms of it, I mean I don't hallucinate or hear voices in my head, or laugh at bad news or sit there for hours doin gnothing, but I feel persecuted by people and 1 person espicially who has been rather close to me in the past, Everytime someone walks past me am suspicious of them like their going to do something (Cant tell you what), and when am in my place back at home am scared of looking out the window becasue I think something is going to come at me. If am diagnosed with this, what can anybody really say though to make it go away? As far as am concerned, I have this for life.

if u act flirty and sexy u will just give this guy the wrong impression do you know what I mean and he will think you're easy. So just be yourself.

Thank you Raykay - I will seek help in the next two weeks when I arrive back in my home country and able to see my doctor. I will also PM you and let you know in the next few months how I have got on. I was just posting to see if anybody knew the procedures they will put me through, and if there is possiblility there would be any complications. To be honest, this is really taking me alot of balls to do this, and I always thought my suspiciouns of poeple trying to hurt me were completely normal and rational, its only since i posted a thread on this site, and got replied with 'this may be schizphrenia or may lead to schzphrenia2 so now i am really worried. I really dont want this to get worse in the future so am goin for it. Anybody know anyon ewho has suffered and their outcomes? Or what they will do to me after i have told the doctor i think am schizophrenic?

ANybody here suffer from paranoid schizophrenia or just basic paranoia. I have had suffered from paranoia since the age of around 15 and still have not seeked help, although I will be doing when I return form abroad back to my home country in two weeks. Anybody know what the porcess he will do to help me. I have read there is no cure, and I don't see how some phychologist or tooking to a bunch of nuts in a circle is going to help me, am still going to be suffering from the same persecutions I have always had, from the same people, strangers etc. Does anybody have any knowledge about what the implications are? I really want to be 'cured' now as it seems to get worse, then better, then worse, then better - and 2 be hoenst is starting to pis s me right off. I dont even consider myself as schizophrenic but sometimes i relaly feel like my mind is in another world. LAst night I felt really really anxious about my girlfriend touching my face, I thought she was going to do something that would hurt me, scary isn't it? It's like though deep down i know that she wouldn't of course, but something is in my mind telling me that something bad is oging to happen. Cheers

Just look at other girls and get some other girls that are interested in you, don't chase one that only see's you as a friend. When I was 18 I didn't give a monkeys about 1 girl, I slapped on a condom and went round emptying my balls on lots of girls. The world is a weird and wonderful place with plenty of pus sy for every1. Don't worry kidda - just leave this girl alone, you never know in time she might come forward but i doubt it... so look for other girls you are still young to worry about 1 girl.

if you truly believe she feels the same for you as you do fo her, leave your husband may be the best way for you to be happy, but just think of it in the long term.

that's what you think though? Sorry but you have gave me the impression that she is a money grabbing woman who wants to destroy your marriage and family. How do you know she doesn't need it? How long you been with her for, is what you are saying you love her serious? Really, somehow i find it hard to believe you.. Of course if things work out with her and your happy for the rest of your life with her go for it, but think about the pro's and con's about what you will lose and gain.

and what about your husband? You sure this girl isn't using you for your cash? Are you sure??

really you have gave me the impression she doesn't like you in that way. I just say, be her friend and donæt get the wrong impressions when she flirts with you, she's clearly just having fun with you. Sorry if that hurt you, but that is strictly my own opinion. Look for other girls, how old are you?

"The sun does not compare to how bright and beautifull her smile is" - oh my dear god, what are you on love? Yeah she might have the smile brighter than the sun hahahahahhahahah but really does she offer you the security your husband does? There's more than just to a relationship than just love. HENCE, things like cars, mortgages and MOST IMPORTANT MONEY! If you leave your husband, can you bleed this girl dry? If not, i'd recommend staying with your husband and carry on bleeding him dry. Seriously though, think about the financial aspects of it, you also don't want to be giving your kids extra pocket money do you? Or two separeate christmas presents?Because once they get there claws into it, they'll carry on doing it. You have ot think about things like this.