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  1. I would probably try to see as much of the world that I could. within what was realistically possible.
  2. Hi, No that is very true, I have known this for a while. I do have a semi decent income and I can afford most things. I wouldn't say I struggle financially or anything like that. As you say it's better to have a job than not have one. When I'm in the city centre and I look around, I notice homeless people and people living on the streets. I do think how awful it must be for them. I offer them food /water etc. I do appreciate the fact that I have a house, a job, a car, food etc. I also, usually purchase a bit of extra food when shopping and leave it in the food donation bins. Good day to you too 🙂
  3. Thank you so much. I know deep down I'm a good person. I just have so much emotional stuff going on its hard to find the goodness. When I broke up with me EX GF. I honestly feel so bad for not supporting her and not been there for her. I miss her so much. But I have been told a few times, You can't love someone else unless you love yourself first. The issue is I don't love myself and until that is rectified I won't make a good partner for anybody. I have decided to see a therapist via the private route. It's £40 an hour but I think it will help me. I must have been told by 15+ people that I should do therapy as it will help. Thank you for taking the time to reply
  4. , Hi, Thank you for your kind reply. I have been thinking a lot recently and I have decided to go for therapy via the private route. It's £40 an hour but I think it will help me. I must have been told by 15+ people that I should do therapy as it will help. I remember doing homework at home as a child. I remember being told by my mother that I'm (Stupid like her), and generally being put down at everything I wanted to do. I think she had a traumatic upbringing too ( There was an incident of her finding out at 18 that her dad wasn't her dad). so she has negative feelings too ( We don't get along now ). As a result, she has a different second name to her biological father. I took my mothers name at birth due to an absent father so I too have a second name that is different to the rest of the family (Aka my mum should have been named after her biological father, I would then have had my granddad's second name instead of some randomer) (I found all this out by doing my ancestry tree) I did sign up to a gym 2 weeks ago. It's a personal trainer to motivate me. I still need to force myself to go, but once I go I'm glad I went. I am even starting to see the results. I also went to see about some volunteer work yesterday. I am awaiting a callback. Its restoring old victorian train cartridges and looks really rewarding work. working as a team etc so gives me the chance to meet people and gain some new DIY/ Restoration skills. I just wish my Ex GF was here so I could share all this with her. But as I said, she has her own issues and wanted to break up. I respect that decision and wish her well. I would say I'm popular at work, everyone talks to me and we have a good chat. Most are a lot older than me and married with kids so have their own lives to lead.
  5. Hello everyone, I will try to make this brief. I am a 30-year-old guy from the UK. I have always suffered a certain amount of self-loathing and generally have a negative outlook on life. This has affected me in one form or another throughout life. My self-loathing and general negative outlook has so far cost me two relationships, the most recent three a week ago. I'm gutted! I will give a bit of background but I, ll keep it short ( I know how annoying long posts are!). So basically as a child I never knew my father, His entire side of the family I don't know anything about. I know I have a Father, Uncle, an Aunt and Cousins out there somewhere but they don't want to know me. I have no idea why. The only family I have is my mother and her parents (Grandmother and Grandad) Growing up my Mother met her partner and we moved into his house. He never liked me, never spoke to me and never did/has done anything for me. The funny thing was my mum would always choose him over me and I felt unloved and unwanted. They would go off on holiday all the time and leave me home alone. I have no siblings and so had to entertain myself. Now my first GF and I broke up due to my insecurities, She said she couldn't handle the negativities and we broke up (My fault) I respected that. 18 months later I met my second GF of two years. I said to myself that I will be different, a more positive person. For the first 18 months, things were fantastic and I was so happy. Then She started feeling down and depressed. Her dog died, her dad made contact with her after 27 years of her not knowing who he was (Just like me!). She stopped being affectionate and loving. So I went to my old negative ways, You don't love me etc etc. She broke up due to my actions. I know I should have been there for her, but my selfish actions took over. again I respect her decision and won't harass her over it. I don't have an awful lot of Friends. This is partly because when I was at school. I had to be straight home from school, No one was allowed in his house (My mum's partners house) and I wasn't allowed a key. They would often go out leaving me alone, and basically, I couldn't leave the house as I wouldn't be able to get back in, plus my mum didn't let me out anyway. I wanted to join the Army at 16, went off for my interview, passed etc and worked on my fitness. I was put down instantly saying I was stupid, unfit and I can't do it. So I pulled out in the end. When I used to put my mind to something at school, I was again told I was stupid and would amount to nothing. I let this get to me and left school with nothing. I now drive an HGV (It's all I can do with no skills). which isn't the best.I'm alone all day and lack any interaction. It's starting to get me down. is this going to be my life forever? I have dreams about the future, how I am going to end up very lonely and with nobody. At the age of 30, Single with no skills and not a particularly good job, what hope do I have? I know people will say go out and do something, go to college etc but I have such negative thoughts in general that I can't shift. whilst I think this way nothing will ever change (I posted this in the wrong place but I can't seem to delete this post)
  6. Hello everyone, I will try to make this brief. I am a 30-year-old guy from the UK. I have always suffered a certain amount of self-loathing and generally have a negative outlook on life. This has affected me in one form or another throughout life. My self-loathing and general negative outlook has so far cost me two relationships, the most recent three a week ago. I'm gutted! I will give a bit of background but I, ll keep it short ( I know how annoying long posts are!). So basically as a child I never knew my father, His entire side of the family I don't know anything about. I know I have a Father, Uncle, an Aunt and Cousins out there somewhere but they don't want to know me. I have no idea why. The only family I have is my mother and her parents (Grandmother and Grandad) Growing up my Mother met her partner and we moved into his house. He never liked me, never spoke to me and never did/has done anything for me. The funny thing was my mum would always choose him over me and I felt unloved and unwanted. They would go off on holiday all the time and leave me home alone. I have no siblings and so had to entertain myself. Now my first GF and I broke up due to my insecurities, She said she couldn't handle the negativities and we broke up (My fault) I respected that. 18 months later I met my second GF of two years. I said to myself that I will be different, a more positive person. For the first 18 months, things were fantastic and I was so happy. Then She started feeling down and depressed. Her dog died, her dad made contact with her after 27 years of her not knowing who he was (Just like me!). She stopped being affectionate and loving. So I went to my old negative ways, You don't love me etc etc. She broke up due to my actions. I know I should have been there for her, but my selfish actions took over. again I respect her decision and won't harass her over it. I don't have an awful lot of Friends. This is partly because when I was at school. I had to be straight home from school, No one was allowed in his house (My mum's partners house) and I wasn't allowed a key. They would often go out leaving me alone, and basically, I couldn't leave the house as I wouldn't be able to get back in, plus my mum didn't let me out anyway. I wanted to join the Army at 16, went off for my interview, passed etc and worked on my fitness. I was put down instantly saying I was stupid, unfit and I can't do it. So I pulled out in the end. When I used to put my mind to something at school, I was again told I was stupid and would amount to nothing. I let this get to me and left school with nothing. I now drive an HGV (It's all I can do with no skills). which isn't the best.I'm alone all day and lack any interaction. It's starting to get me down. is this going to be my life forever? I have dreams about the future, how I am going to end up very lonely and with nobody. At the age of 30, Single with no skills and not a particularly good job, what hope do I have? I know people will say go out and do something, go to college etc but I have such negative thoughts in general that I can't shift. whilst I think this way nothing will ever change
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