I have been married for almost 10 years. Over the years my husband cheated several times. I was head over heels in love with him but once the truth came out I just could not do it anymore so I left because I was hurt. During the time that I left I talked to an old friend whom I was intimate with along time ago we met up and things kind of sparked. But he ended up having to leave for work for a few months but we continue to talk. Well my husband started to come around pretty much begging for forgiveness saying all the right things, the things I had wanted him to say years ago. Eventually I decided to go back with him and he has been great and has really changed. The problem is I am not in love with him. No matter what he does for me or says I just dont have that spark anymore like I did years ago. I still talk to the other guy and we really have a deep connection and plan to see each other again when he comes back but now I am stuck. My dad really likes my husband and they have a good bond but I cant stay with him because of my dad. We dont have any children together but I have 3 step kids that I have helped raise over the past 11 years but they are older now. I just dont know what to do. Any advice would help.