Hello! I just feel devastated. Posting here is my only way to share my story and listen to your opinions. I've been cheated. We both are 23 and I spend the last 10 months with a guy that destroyed me. We both meet each other on our last semester of MBA abroad. We have been living together for 6 months. We came back to our city just 2 months ago and everything looked perfect after that day. He told me that he was walking to our friend's home and call me back in 2 minutes. And then he disappeared for next 4 hours. It was late evening and I thought something happened to him. The boy he was going to is my very close friend too. So I called and asked if he was okay. He told me that he had no idea where he was and other friends were trying to contact as well. I was more scared and nervous and start calling madly. I could not imagine him cheating. He answered me very rudely and told me he was sleeping. Next day he told me that he was with another woman. Later discovered that this woman was 17 years old girl. I was shocked. He told me that he didnt have trust in me(because of really silly reason) and he could not see our future. That he could not love me because of his doubts. And also he wanted to try someone new just for a night. That this girl was super active and pushy and wanted to meet him. Looks he wanted another adventure. He really feels bad that he made this. To hurt me that much. But that doesnt change anything But right now I am confused. I dont know how I have to feel. Definitely I love him and I am mad why I still can love him. In my mind, sometimes I hate him for what he has done. But sometimes I completely forget what happened to me and continue loving him. I wanted to cut contacts to him but he told me he wants to be with me forever. No matter as a partner or a friend. He loves me the most. Because I am the most the kind and great hearted girl. I just dont know what to do. Your advice matters a lot to me. Thank you.