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  1. Yes, I see a therapist on my own. She suggested I speak with a lawyer to see what my rights would be to help me decide. In the Spring of 2019 I brought up trying for a baby and he said he wasnt ready to give up his freedom. I am glad we didnt try because bringing a child into this mess is the last thing on my mind at this point.
  2. Also, we broke up twice before we married (we were together for 5 years total before getting married). I had a pit in my stomach when we were planning the wedding. I think I somehow thought things would be different if we got married. I also had this stupid timeline in my head that I had to be married before I turned 30. Trust me. I wish I had a time machine so I could go back and tell myself not to do it, that things would only get more difficult.
  3. I honestly dont know, either. Whenever I try to talk to him about a divorce he says he never has done anything THAT bad and says I am not trying hard enough. I start to second guess myself. Not a great excuse, I know. I just feel lost and I dont know what to do next.
  4. To be honest, the marriage counsellor is. Ot helping. He has never really given us any concrete advice, just reiterates the four horsemen of the relationship apocalypse and puts all the questions back on us. I have stated numerous times how I would like to be treated, how I want more empathy and more time but it never seemed to translate outside of the appointments.
  5. I have been married for a little over 2 years. I am just not happy anymore and this marriage is not what I thought it would be. It has never felt like a aprtnership. I feel as though I have contributed to most of the relationship and taken care of basically everything around the house. I pay the bills, meal prep and plan, grocery shop, fix things when they break, etc. Aside from that, there have been many other things happening....I want advice on if I am being too sensitive or if my feelings are justified. I don't have a great baseline on how a marriage is supposed to look....my parents divorced when I was 10 and it was due to my father's alcoholism. Speaking of my father's alcoholism, my husband is in a band and wrote a song about my dad called "Go Away Now". I still have a relationship with my father and this song hurt me deeply. I expressed that to my husband yet he continued to play the song at gigs because it "was one of their most popular songs". I even brought this up in marriage counseling (we have been going since June). I finally had enough at a gig in October, ended up flipping him off and leaving, which I know wasn't the most mature thing to do....my feelings got the best of me. I haven't been to a gig since and he has told me he resents me for that. When I am sick he tells me I should just quit my job because the kids make me sick and he claims I am always sick (I'm not....also, I am an elementary school teacher). He flips out when something breaks in the house and claims we should just sell the house because something always goes wrong. I get knots in my stomach when something goes wrong in the house and I have to tell him because I know he is going to yell and react with extreme negativity. He also is hardly home, going to a friend's house once per week for dinner, having band practice, gigs, etc. I used to be so upset and lonely when he wasn't home and always felt like he was putting everything else ahead of our relationship. It has gotten to the point where I feel relief when he isn't here. I have gotten used to being able to go to bed when I want, watch what I want on TV, or lay in bed and read without anyone complaining that I am reading (he has said to me before "Who would rather read than watch TV"). He also goes to bed between 1 and 2 in the morning every night and I am woken up when he does that. He sleeps in until 11 on the weekend, which makes it impossible to do anything until later in the day. A few weeks ago I had a busy weekend of a craft fair for my small business and a 5k I was training for. He told me to pick one for him to go to as he didn't want to get up early both days. This hurt my feelings as I had worked really hard for both events and didn't feel supported by him. He would also complain when I had to do work for my Master's Degree. I never felt as though he was proud of my accomplishment, he would only say I was smarter than him in a condescending tone. My mom and my sister can't stand him and he tells me I should have other people to hang out with because I "hang out with them too much". We got into a huge fight in November because I went to a concert with one of my friends (thinking he would be happy I was hanging out with someone besides my mom or sister) on the same night his band was playing a gig...he was mad because I chose to go to "some ty band" instead of his show. My freidn had an extra ticket to another show a few weeks later and I went again. This time I ended up drinking a bit too much and was very hungover the next day. My husband was very angry and told me he didn't feel bad for me and that now who was going to pick up the food and who was going to fix the clogged sink? I started to cry, he got mad and threw his shoes down the stairs. My dog started to bark and he started yelling at the dog for barking. That was the last straw for me and I ended up flipping out saying I couldn't take being treated like nothing any longer, took the dogs and went for a long drive until I knew he had left the house to go to yet another band thing. Since then I have been so close to leaving but still so torn.....I want to be sure I am making the right choice. I don't want to have to lose my house and everything I have worked so hard for, yet I am tired of feeling sad and lonely. Sorry for the long post. I guess I am just looking for validation that I am not crazy and that this must not be normal.....right?
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