Right, the story...
Mid January, start talking to this girl on msn and we get on really well, she wants to get in to modeling and I need models for my site and for car shows so I offer her the chance, she bites my hand off, and we get on better. She gives me her number before she goes offline. Then after an hour or so I send her a text saying something like its on condition she goes for a drink with me. She reply sayin yeah deffo.
about a week passes and we talk and stuff on msn and text etc, and then I ask her to meet up with me. And we do.
First "date" we go and see her friend who is babysitting so it was like me all nervous as it was then more nervous as i was with 3 people I didnt know, but we get on well and have a good time. I drop her off, we hug and I cheekly ask for a good night kiss and get a little peck.
Next day I ask her if she wants to come out again, this time to meet up with me and all my friends, she says ok, so I go to pick her up but get stood up, not answering the phone or anything so I send her a message saying "guess you changed ur mind, cheers for letting me know. u know where i am if u change it back again". A bit later I get one back saying "Sorry, I fell asleep" so that all got sorted out.
Then the next week we saw each other on the Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. We had a small argument on the Saturday because an old friend who I liked told me she has these feelings for me and cant deal with me wanting someone else, stupidly I told the new girl this and she jumped to the wrong conclusion. But again, we sorted that out and saw each other for a couple of hours that night. And the Sunday night too.
Everything seems like its going as clockwork. Now I get attached really easily, fall for people easily and this time I stopped myself thinking anything more than mates, until the Sunday.
Then, the next week we dont see each other all week, I am falling for her, starting to feel something for her, and worrying that something is going on between her and a male friend of hers, although I dont tell her my worries, I just carry on talking on the phone, msn etc as usual.
Friday night we see each other for a bit and again on Saturday night. We were supposed to be going shopping on the Sunday morning but early Sunday I get a text saying her parents wont let her out so she cant make it. Im disapointed but say its ok. Then a bit later I find out she is out with this male friend again, funny she couldnt come out earlier. But again I keep my worries to myself.
By now we arent seeing each other every day, which I believe to be a good thing, too much too soon caused problems with my ex, dont want the same happening here. Mid week I pluck up the courage to ask her if anything is going on with her and her male mate, she says no, they are just friends, etc etc. Asks why I ask and I tell her and she gets a little funny saying stuff like "so I cant see my friends is that it?" But that isnt it and I explain and its all good once again.
Then comes the stinger... she says "I think we work best as mates" something I did not want to hear. So I say ok, it isnt what I want but then its not about just me. I get upset but calm myself and say friends is better than nothing.
So again we carry on seeing each other for a couple of hours at night, also had a morning together last week and did our abandoned shopping trip.
Oh, almost forgot, Valentines day I sent her 24 red roses, when she got them she phoned me but I didnt have a good signal on my phone so could only text, and she said she got them, she is crying and thanks so much etc.
Anyway (damn this is long lol) basically, she had in the past said she like me, i like her but we arent together to one of my friends. Then a bit later said she needs to get to know me before jumping in to a relationship, which I completely understand knowing her past.
She also has said to my female friends, which I am not supposed to know, when they were talking about who wants to sleep with them, one said I want to sleep with her and she replied with I can want all I like we are mates... at the mo.
Now that was after she told me we work best as mates. And she is under the impression I wont find out they were talking about me liking her, so why the at the mo bit?
Also, the other day we were talking on MSN and she was saying that me and a female friend of mine should "get it on" because I was trying to help her out when she was down about a relationship she just come out of. I told her no way and not to get me on that subject because I may tell her things I should keep to myself... something I shouldnt have said as it made her want to know. So I told her how I feel, how I am falling for her, how I have feelings for her, how I care about her a hell of alot and that im scared I might be falling in love.
With this she replied that I should tell her these things, said she likes me a hell of alot, but then that was the end of that and I didnt have the courage to say "But..." or "well do something about it"
And another thing is, once when I was quiet she asked me if I had another girl on the go, something I would NEVER do, so I told her exactly that and told her there is only 1 girl I want etc.
Now, I am so confused as to what to do and how she is feeling... She has said she likes me but needs to get to know me. Then said we should be just mates. Then asked if I have another girl on the go. Then said I should get with someone else. Then said I should tell her how I feel and that she likes me a hell of alot.
Whats it all about? What should I do? Whats she playing at?
On a few occasions I have wanted to tell her I love her, just some of the things she does makes me just want to grab her and tell her that, but I am scared that I will get really hurt and scare her off too. Although she knows I care for her a lot as I have told her this and I showed this last night when she had meningitis symptoms and i was worried all night (no sleep for me) and all morning until she replied to my texts.
Anyway, if you have read all this please let me know what I am supposed to do and what shes playin at. Im so confused. The way I see it she wants to be with me but is playing with me for some reason. But I really dont know.
