My boyfriend of 2 years, 9 months and I broke up last Thursday night. Last October I told him I wanted more. At that time, he said he didn't. We broke up. Less than 24 hours later he sent me a 2 page letter saying how he wanted a future with me, wanted to grow with me etc etc. Fast forward now 9 months later and nothing has changed. I have pressed multiple times to have conversations about moving forward. He avoids it. He finally last week told me he wasn't ready and didn't know when he would be. He said he had hoped his feelings from October would have changed but they hadn't. He says how great of a person I am, how great I am to his children and family, him, etc. How he hoped he wasn't making some big mistake but knows it isn't fair to me to keep on doing what we are knowing I wanted more. It was eating me up. It was bringing me down. I didn't want to have small talk with him anymore. When he'd text me lovey things, I didn't want to reply etc. He had pushed me away. I don't feel the need to call or text or anything but I am struggling with the fact that he seems to have completely erased me from his life like I never existed. It has me feeling like I never mattered. We didn't end on bad terms at all. I told him I wasn't mad at him, I don't hate him, he can't help how he feels. And he doesn't have to want what I want but I don't have to wait around for him to be ready for what I want. I guess I need support and to be able to vent and talk it out. I have signed myself up for counseling. Any other advice to help me thru this?