Michael19

1 whole month has gone by since NC. All we had was social media to go off of to see what we have been up to. That's gone now with you making that decision to remove me . I'm super bummed. You saw everything this weekend and then just like that it's completely gone. It may be for the best but I want ready for it. I didn't expect it. I still have so much I want to say. I still love you. Everything didn't go unnoticed this weekend. Now I have to really accept you want absolutely nothing to do with me . How can that be?

I miss you incredibly right now. I'm holding back the urge to text you but I know I shouldn't. I hope you do it first

3 weeks of no contact.... why is that I want you to send a text or call only for me to not reply. I hope you know you went about everything the wrong way.

Everyday that I wake up and don't see a message or call from you i hate you a little more. No apology,no closure is the worst. That's all I ever wanted at the end....why?

Today I thought about you all day and night again. Especially last night when I saw a picture of you on Facebook. You were wearing something very sentimental between us. It gave me a bit of hope thinking that you are somehow thinking of me when you put it on. I hate this so much that i can't contact you. I known everyone is saying its the wrong move. I don't know how much longer I can go until I reach that breaking point when i text you and tell you everything I've thought and felt the passed month or so specifically. I would never want anyone to go through how I've felt. All I can do is wait and wait ... but how long? Please come back. I love you so much and don't want to be with anyone else.

It's been 1 full week since I've been ghosted. Yes I know it's only a week but every single day sucked! Having to explain to my family that the woman I'm supposed to marry is capable of doing this is gut wrenching. I never thought this would actually happen. Why do I still hang on and pray that you come back? I thought about you all day and night yesterday. I have to pretend I'm ok around other people but when I'm home alone I fall apart.

It's been almost a week with NC since I asked for us to have a conversation to establish if we are in a relationship anymore and you didn't show or contact . I can now say that I'm being "ghosted". Still so hard to believe and accept that what we had means nothing to you. My worst fear is probably true .... that you were cheating on me and can't face me to tell me. Especially with the one person you said I never had anything to worry about. I guess technically it's not cheating if you gave up on us awhile back . Would have been nice to know back then .I wish I can wish you to be happy ,but right now it's damn near impossible. I really want you to realize you lost a really good thing. The one person you can count on to never ever leave you or do something to mess up a relationship. I would have done anything for you. I still would and probably still take you back. You still have my heart and I'd like it back.

I'm having a family gathering this weekend for a bday. I'm looking forward to the 21 million questions. You've only met a few of my family members. They were all so happy for us especially every time I spoke about you.

Does this break even effect you? Are you taking as hard as I am or are you just like "ehhh" and moving on. How do you sleep at night knowing you broke my heart which is the one thing you never wanted to do. There are things in your house that will remind you of me every single day. I hope your gut hurts every time that happens

I wish you had the guts to tell it was over . All you did over these last 2 months is give me falso hope. That one weekend we had with the kids was a look at our future and we loved it. I took it all in and it made me extremely happy. Also, you allowed your "ex" to be at the house way too much. Even after hours when your kids were sleeping. That was disrespectful on your part. Wonder where he was sleeping? Most likely with you since you definitely weren't sleeping with me. Now go enjoy liking other dudes instagram/Facebook pictures... but not mine when we were together. Don't worry, your friends and family don't know I ever existed cause you didn't tell them anything.