mdiddy811999

Thank you for the things you said it helps alot. I want to be a new person and live my life the way I want to not the way everyone else wants me to live.

thanks for your advice. thays what ive always done was let everyone else run my life. i always let myself make everyone else happy and my self last.

im only off of work for maternity leave. But the thing is, is that he has the money. But i guess it doesn't matter no one can help me. The county sucks and wont help those that really do work hard. Thanks anyways i wouldnt expect you to really understand.

yes i reported him for the second time. The first time he gave me 10 dollars so he wouldn't go to jail. They cant garnish or take his lisense cause he has nothing.

Does fairness even exsist? I guess ill start with what kind of break that im talking about. Besides that i lost a good friend that was stabbed and my cousin that was killed in an accident 7 months ago and im alone......... The father of my daughter owes my over 1400 dollars. I've violated he for the second time 4wks ago and i stll haven't heard anything or received anything in the mail about the situation. We we're together for 7yrs and all he did was degrad me and abuse me. thats done and over thank god. But ever since we had a little girl he has nothing to do with her only when its to his convience. Which is whenever his girlfriend kicks him out. But since the first time i violated him ive received 10 dollars. What the hell is that gonna do for me. The father of my son, which i just had 4wks ago today, tells me he is gonna come over to see him and doesn't show up or call . He then pops up two days later. But If I have a family member watch him so I can go out for the night he'll call and leave a message demanding that he gets him that next weekend. What's fair about that? He said he was gonna give me money one week and I still have not received anything. He now ows me for 4wks. I haven't talked to him since last sat. and was gonna come over on sun. im off of work until dec 15 i have no money. I have layaway to still pay for which is stuff for thier kids and i cant even get help from them. I work my butt off to support myself and my kids and all i want is a break and for them to take care of thiers. God life can really suck. They say that god only gives you what you can handle but i cant handle anything anymore.

I guess what really hurts is that im in pain everyday and dont know what to do about it. I have been through alot and still i survive and want to. but its hard sometimes to think that way. With being in the abbusive relationship ive had a hard time with being ina commiting relationship. Thats what is hard sometimes and i really want to be in a relationship to feel loved. But when i find someone that really loves me and wants to take care of me i run away. It sucks. When i drink i get very emotional and end up crying myself to slepp or just pass out. I like to drink to make me forget what is going on that moment. I dont drink when my kids are around. Im at least that responsible but i wish i could drink all the time to forget reality. i just feel pain all the time and i hate it.

Thanks My daughters father is who made me strong. Its just that I get very aggitated and fruastrated and i want to cry almost everday.

Well to start off I really haven't lived the best life so far. Im 23 and a single mother of two. I dont feel that i want to kill myself at all. My kids are my reminder of staying here. Even though sometimes I think they could have better. My job is good, Im a manager at a restuarant. Things just seem to come all at once when something goes wrong. For instence, I found out I was pregnant a month after I broke up with the father and of course he denied being the father and spread rumors about me the whole time. Then a few weeks later a good friend of mine was stabbed and died while we were in the waiting room at the hospital. He was only 18. Then a month later my 18 year old cousin that I loved very much was killed in a car accident in Virginia. She lived in Pittsburg. That was the hardest thing I had gone through. And its still hard to talk sometimes without tearing up the whole time. Before all this When I was with the father of my first child, we were together for 7 yrs and he beat the crap out of me everyday. I finally got away from him and he has nothing to do with his little girl. My mind is confused and my heart hurts and it pretty much aches. I guess I wrote this to ask for some advice or something to ease my mind and soul. I dont have closerue and i think i need some. And Im not totally over what my daughters father did to me and he doesn't even care and says its my fault. Can someone help me?

Well there's that general rule you don't date your friends ex partner. She probably doesn't want any problems with either one of you guys. You were friends before and she probably wants to keep it that way.

Sometimes it's easier to talk to people that can't see you or even know you. Maybe he doesn't have someone to talk to or is afraid to. Going online for help is not so far fetched.