Hello all,
I am brand-spanking new to this forum but have been reading the posts and you seem to give good and productive advice. I require assistance with an issue that is plaguing me and believe that your dispassionate opinions could be invaluable.
I am a seventeen-year-old girl in my first year of music studies. One of my classmates and I have become very close over the last few months. It began as a beautiful and supportive friendship but has gradually grown into something more. Problem? He's 26, nine years older than me.
The issue of maturity is one that is raised often in this forum. While I do not claim to be fully mature (I am still very, very young) I do not believe that I am at the same stage in my life as many seventeen-year-old girls. For one thing, I graduated from high school a year early and am living independently. For another, there are circumstances in my past (sexual abuse) that caused me to grow up very fast at a very early age. I realize that I still have a lot of emotional growth ahead of me, but I believe in the difficult transition between adolescence and adulthood, I am closer to adulthood. Also because of my emotional baggage, it has been very hard for me to learn to trust. I have struggled with low self-esteem and poor self-image my entire life, viewing myself as damaged and undesirable. This man makes me feel strong and beautiful. He makes me trust him. He makes me feel special and whole. I am truly happy with him.
We have made no attempt to hide this attachment. So far, friends have been cautiously supportive. They tell me to be careful, but they also see that I am happy and gaining confidence and so support the relationship. The only major dissent has been from my older sister. While she has not forbidden me from seeing him, she has made it quite clear that she thinks this is a bad idea and I will only end up hurt again. I love my sister dearly and cannot easily discount her opinion.
What are your takes on this situation? Should I give this relationship a try, or am I just setting myself up for more pain?