teapots

I dated a guy for almost six months. We met on the internet, talked so much, have so much chemistry. We literally cold take for 7+ hours on the phone. Anyways, he lives 1.5 hours away and I was suppose to move to England. He broke up with me about 3 months in because of England, but then I changed my mind ( long story ) and we got back together. Things have been really strained since then, and he swears up and down that he's the reason I didn't go to England. HIs dad passed away. SO much. While it was a deciding factor, it wasn't the main reason. Anyways, he broke up with me last night and it's mostly due to distance. We both have full schedules and we both suck at planning. And even though it's only 1.5 hours away, you really have to plan these things out and you can't just 'pop' over for a dinner or see a movie and we both currently live at home, making weekends away difficult. Anyways - I am really torn up. And I have been moving to his area anyway because I hate where I live and I have a good group of friends and acquaintances close to him. This won't happen for a good 6-9 months, and I know we won't stop talking together forever. We've always been really honest with each (one reason I really liked him. no games) and when we first started talking, he always told me he'd turn into a jerk toward his exes because that's how he copes. he's cold and short with them. The first time he broke up with me, I, in tears, sobbed and asked him not to do that to me. That I couldn't handle it. So last night, HE brought it up, that if I ever need someone to talk to or anything, I can reach out to him. He won't go cold on me. He says that he had to do this because I'm different than any other girl who just dates around. And I told him that there's a chance I might move to his state in the future, and he said that we could get together if that happened. (but if i moved next week, he'll know it's for sure because of him. lol) anyways, one of the last things I said to him was - so i'll never talk to you again? and he said he wouldn't say that. but we can't talk for awhile. And I agree. There's just a lot of disappointment and hurt and I really like him. I don't know if we'll ever get back together, but i know the door isn't shut 100%. Even though he told me i'd find a great guy who isn't a jerk (i then cried and told him to stop talking) this is so painful. but i can handle it. i am strong.